OK so its been a week!. The leg has been a tad stiff and sore when sitting so i have avoided my usual spot in front of this screen!!
Well I'm here now and i have had almost unusual week i guess. Only in as much that i have really chilled out. I have rested the leg, i have walked i have tried the exercise bile, um looks like Roger and i will become friends again this winter. i also plan to use the rowing machine i bought earlier this year and haven't been able to use because of the knee.
I have really been trying hard to get fit and i managed a short 1 mile walk on Tuesday. Friend picked me up and we went to the club. Then Thursday we managed 3 miles! felt good so i took the car out late one night to see how i managed. Yay did well and haven't looked back. It was and is still a little sore after driving, but I'm back at the hospital Wednesday and will see if they are pleased with the progress. Physio booked for the following week. It will be two weeks on Wednesday and only another 2 weeks before i can run.
We haven't managed to get out as much as we planned. I was due the annual leave and we thought we may get away for a few days, but as i had just started my new job i thought best just use the leave to recuperate! Next year we do want to get away for a few days. Maybe back to one of the lodges in Devon in the early Spring, best not plan anything though.
My new job is well just fab. The people are so nice! just wish i had moved ages ago, but we get stuck in this comfort rut and happily go with the flow. Still a challenge is good for the soul i believe.
The weather is changing and Autumn draws ever nearer. The fens are returning to that barren landscape. In a few weeks it will be the black soil and nothing growing. Depressing. Its foggy tonight, my journeys to work will be a little more stressful and take that little bit longer to get to and fro, still a small price to pay.
The evenings are becoming cooler, not yet ready to put the heating on, but it will not be long i fear.
Cant understand this country! how is it that the local council has now embarked on the Christmas theme. Get the lights up now! its bad enough negotiating through the centre of town at the moment, the roads are up all over. Madness, the frosts will react to the new tarmac, sink and crack and we will have lousy roads again! complete waste of our tax payers money!! The street lights are being turned off early in the mornings, i know because I'm still awake! Yet here they are stringing up hundreds of coloured bulbs across the streets!
I have heard from some of the staff at my old place of work, just pleased i have moved on and not to interested now. Sad but there it is.
Mikey loved Christmas and i now find it so hard! i try and have asked Tom if he wants to put some decs up but he said no. Relief i think. Will it ever be a joyful time for us again, i rather think not. Would be good to hibernate for a couple of weeks, or become every scrooge like! I have a photo somewhere of Mikey as the ghost of Christmas past, how apt!
Sisters want another day out, Lin rang today to see if i can make Friday, but i have just had the past week and a half off! sods law isn't it. Still hope to go shopping with them before Christmas.
Duke continues to grow and is a beast now, a lovable beast all the same, he gets through leads like a child with there shoes!
I suppose i best get to bed, still not sleeping well but i have become accustomed to that now. I do so miss Mikey, every day i think of him, every single day. At the strangest moments, Crying on the way to work, a tear coming home from shopping, it doesn't go away, the pain the anguish and the hope that its all a mistake. I'm not an unintelligent person, lord knows i know but.................. I think we have learnt how to hide our true feelings, they become our own and not to be shared, that emotional wreck is just for private!
Misery has been avoiding me recently and for that i am grateful. I remember well that dreadful feeling of despair, its fading into the background somewhat now, is this healing, i don't know is it because we are so drained thee is not enough to quench misery's thirst, i think that's it!
Photos, good gracious i have forgotten to down load them. I will do it now and i will post on here tomorrow, i will return, because after all tomorrow is another day................................
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