Misery has had a hand I'm sure in the last few days. I have just felt so low in mood and then things have kicked off at W!!!!
What started as a day with me in a positive mood ended in despair and confusion. I have had to do something very unpleasant today and really need to man up or i wont last the course!! Didn't leave w till after 6 so was too late for a run, and then had to return for night visit and didn't get home till 3 am!! Thick snow and freezing fog. I knew that Friday would be tough but was feeling fairly confident that it would go well.
I should have known better. I must have this huge invisible sign hanging over my head that says, these shoulders are broad deliver all your s... here. That's how it felt.
The day just got worse and by the time i left i was in a state of utter lack of faith in the human race. I really do wonder why people have to behave in the ways they do, where is kindness and compassion these days.
Tim has been very supportive and when i got home he even said he would come for a run with me although he would be on a bike!!
So i thought i would go back to W on Saturday and try to make Monday a bit easier. That didn't happen!!!
Minus 12 this morning and we decided to go for a walk!! it was so cold although Duke loved it. The world was an eerie place today, so silent and still a complete white out with the freezing fog.
The sun came out a little later in the day.
Tom visited and was so positive it lighted my life a little to see him happier that the last two years.
I decide to go for a run in case tomorrow is another day of being snowed in. I need to get my miles in otherwise i will not be ft to do the marathon.
I told Tom i would run to his and back home. I did!!! he was surprised, in fact i surprised myself. 5.3 miles in an hour on dodgy paths! not sure how the legs will be tomorrow but must keep pushing now.
Toms coming to lunch tomorrow which will be lovely!!
Had a bit of a shock tonight!! i have been listening to music all night as Tim has been watching the sport, Rugby!!! anyway i sat here in Mikeys room at the computer, Duke is always interested and watches from the other side of the gate which is in the kitchen.
The ipod was in shuffle mode so i had no idea what would be playing next and i had my earphones on. The ipod started to play The art of Balance by AFI Mikeys favourite band.
I heard a noise in my left ear and felt a warmth! Duke had come into the room! don't know how he managed it took one look at me, poked me with his nose, jumped on Mikeys bed picked up one of the soft toys and went!! Uncanny . Tim wanted to know why i had opened the gate!!! ha not me and apparently not Tim, i have my doubts i wonder if he forgot! Still Dukes back on the other side watching me yet again, the gates shut i checked!!
Well i better get to bed i have to get up early for the run and i am feeling a lot better now that i did when i first started to write but i must remember that Tomorrow is another day..............
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