9 days!!! i feel as if i have lost my best friend by not blogging. I feel as if i have been robbed of all contact with anyone friendly!!
How bad is that.
When Mikey died i felt dreadful and now i just feel really fed up and disillusioned.
I have so tried to put things into perspective and have failed miserably. I gave up some leave to help out a colleague only to discover that i really should not have bothered! as in the grand scheme of things i may as well have taken it. This week i have been told i cant take the leave i have booked for this week!
I have had a spa day booked with my sisters. Its Lin's birthday and now i will not be able to go. All because of other peoples actions. Yet again paying the costs of someone else actions.
This week my place of work has been invaded by loads of strangers and i feel like a vagrant! no place to call my own! I have had to perform some unpleasant tasks and that is never easy.
I have hardly been home for nearly two weeks and Tim told me to take the keys! as he cant recall when i got home as planned and that we are having separate lives. Well that much is true. As i said i hoped to have a few days together and nope!!! not to be.
Even sitting here now i feel like i am rushing. I am trying to get to bed!!
For the last week i have not laid my head down till 4 am and up again at 7am
Duke has been unwell and now had two trips to the vets and another due on Friday, that's a worry, we are not too sure what the problem is.
I have the Olympic stadium run coming up and i am not having time to enjoy the thoughts of that.
My running buddy is still not fit and its been hard without her, but she is hoping to return soon.
Running has been OK and that has been a place where i can get rid of some of my frustrations, although that hasn't really worked either!
At the moment i look about 90 years of age and barely recognise the person looking back at me in the mirror, that is scary!! Splitting headache and pins and needles in my hands because i havent had my tablets properly. Best take them!
So on that night I'm going to bed and just remember that tomorrow is another day
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