Dear Mikey
Its been another 12 months and every day we think of you. You are not forgotten. Sometimes the days pass and then a month has gone. All they are though are days and dates. Life just goes on. I wish i had reached that stage where i can remember all the good times, and yet i still see you that last day in hospital, i pray for the day when i can see your happy face. I wonder if i am just hanging on to those memories or just because it seems like yesterday. Dad misses you so very much and often will say he has nothing to live for now. Yet he too goes through the motions of life. We know that's not how you wanted us to be, but Mikey its such a huge thing to ask of us. Promises made are not always easy to keep. We are sorry but its just too much. Maybe, maybe this time next year i will be writing a different letter to you. Tom was saying yesterday how pleased you would be because Tottenham are doing well and what a shame you didn't see that.
Dad watched a Harry Potter film today for the first time and enjoyed it. It was The half blood prince, the last one you saw. We know you hoped to see the final parts but i will try and get dad to watch them with me.
Are you happy where ever you are. I hope you are amongst friends and family and are breathing easy. I don't know what i believe in but surely there has to be something better. I hope.
Toms back in town and seems to be happier than he has been for a long time. I hope this year brings some peace of mind and some joy into his life. You were always the more organised and practical one. You were also the one who just loved life. Mikey the world is a poorer place without you in it.
I don't know what Claire is doing but I'm sure if you can, you continue to watch over her. I have been blessed with the friendship of some of your friends who share their lives with us.
Yesterday i ran the New Years Eve Run at Little Downham. Its a popular run and hard to get a place, so we were lucky. We ran well and did a good time, it put us in a positive frame for this year. After all the injuries of last year and only being able to run between one lamp post to another i hope you would be proud of me. OK so i have a tendency to get lost, but Mikey i have never been boring!! I have made some good friends you would be pleased to know. I have also tried to do something new every month, and that will continue this year as well. I'm not sure about Dad i think we will just have to wait and see.
And so another year begins. This is a year for you. Each run will be another step towards the Marathon in May.
The candle burns in the window and light to guide you home to us. A beacon of our love to you. I could talk and write for hours but you know what the posts like if i don't get a wiggle on i will miss the last collection, and so i will close for now and catch you later.
Love you loads, miss you
Mum xxxxx
PS Thought you might enjoy seeing the pre race picture!!!
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