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I cant believe i have just sat here writing for nearly an hour! and forgot to save my stauff and lost it all!  how stupid am i. The only good thing is i have had a good rant about all and sundry so feel slightly better about things than i did earlier. Howevr i really havent got it in me to start all over again! I was only trying to put a pivture or two of the Marathon at the end of my blog tonight!
I think that just about says everything about how life has been this past month!
Work has been the most miserable time and it really is what drives me on. I say drives rather loosely because there is no driver thats for sure. Im on this downward spiral and cannot see a way yet of stopping to get off. Tim would obviously like me to leave and get another job but frankly i haven t got the motivation to do that. I just must want to wallow in misery of some sort.
The days remain bleak! and im so tired all of the time. Im going back to work until the early hours and im not as young as i once was. Is it worth it. Well the simple answer is no of course not. But that doesnt pay the bills!
I can honestly say that i do not enjoy my job as i once did. The pressures from above are relentless and even days off or holidays are disturbed.
I have a torn cartilage the physio thinks! that was doen during the marathon. I spent the time in Scotland in misery afterwards. Well from Mile 13 but im saving it for tomorrow and i will come back. I have to do this, i need to do this and maybe thats what has been wrong these past few weeks. I havent off loaded and its essential to my well being that i do.
Just to show i finished

The knee is starting to swell!!