Day 663-677

Well such a lot has happened in the last two weeks. Its really hard to know where to start.
I suppose the best place is work!! Well its been no secret has it that its been hard these past few months. Things came to a head on the 8th. I was due for some leave on the 10th and was looking forward to some very welcome time off. Our wedding anniversary was on the 16th and i was about to book a boat for the day, Tim has always fancied a go. Anyway luckily i didn't!!

Perhaps i should say i realised how things were going on the 7th and had in some ways prepared myself for what was to come. So on the 8th found myself leaving work very early and at present not working!!! i wait now for the outcomes. I am however prepared and had been keeping records over the last few months. I suppose the report i sent in the week before didn't help!! but there you are.
I wondered why i wasn't concerned when i left, instead i felt relief!
The past week i have of course reflected back but still come to the same place. The worst thing that could ever happen to me already did! i lost a child and nothing actually compares to that. I'm alive and i wont starve, so i wait!

I have caught up on so many jobs i haven't had time for before, i have just chilled and that's been good. The weather could have been kinder but i hope the next week will be better.

The knee, well i have been back to the Dr's and hes sending me off to hospital to get it seen. I hope then it will get sorted to enable me to get back running. I missed the age related race lace last week and I'm sure i would have improved on my last time! ah well there will be others I'm sure. Maybe i will be fit for the spud race! i have already entered. Then i may enter the Great East Run in October.

We had a real fen blow yesterday and i managed to get some pictures, i will try and put them on tomorrow. Manged to get out for some walks and i have started back on the diet, well having just eaten a whole bag of jelly beans it may well start tomorrow!

I have so far raised over £1500 from my marathon run on my just giving site! what a fabulous achievement if i do say so myself and i still have some to come in! I must ask my buddy if she has collected her sponsorship money yet.

Well Mikey has been very much in our thoughts and i am at present attempting to scan all the old photos! and had to get a new printer. Goodness that was a task in itself trying to get set up. No Mikey to help or should i say he would tell me many times how to do it and then give up because i was still having problems! just not into all these gadgets!

Duke is growing at an alarming rate! he is huge and can now clear the gate between the kitchen and the rest of the bungalow! only however when he is startled and wants some company!!!

We went for a walk last week and he fell in the river, I'm not sure who was worried more, Duke or Tim. Poor Tim set off at speed when he heard the splash, i with the knee could only limp along to see what was occurring. Next thing, there was Duke soaking wet looking totally bemused. Looked over his shoulder at the river, grunted and shook himself!

Today i have managed to do some much needed surgery on Dukes best friends. His beloved Monkey had his arm stitched back on, his seagull unfortunately had to have his foot amputated and the resulting stitch work was pretty damn good!, his cows voice box  is beyond saving and tomorrow i will attempt to remove it and hope a silent cow will be of some comfort to him!

I have managed to put a zip in Tim's winter coat! nothing like being prepared, i did wonder if my machine was up to the task though, at 54 years of age its still going fairly strong! a few temperamental moments but all in all you cant beat a Singer!! Job done!

We may attempt a bit of decorating this week, well over due. The lounge i think!!! i can almost feel a new pair of curtains coming on, well we will see, i rather like my old ones!!

I have bought myself some new DVD,s so when Tim's watching the football i will have something to do!!

I am hoping Tim will get himself a bike and then we can get out together, at least i can do that. I keep looking at my rowing machine and wonder would it hurt if i used it? yep i think it would so i will wait till after the 25th before i do more damage!!

I'm reading! and getting through my pile of paperbacks that have just been gathering dust! bliss!!

I don't know what the future will be for me yet, but as Tom aid maybe this is a blessing in disguise! you have always worked its time for a rest! Si that's exactly what I'm doing. Not sure if I'm just trying to reassure myself or not but at this moment i feel better than i have for ages so I'm not going to worry after all, tomorrow is another day..........................