Its Friday and the end of a very long week, but at least I'm on holiday next week and i have left my phone at work! That's a first.
Went running last night and managed a measly 4 miles well nearly 5 but its pitiful!! still the ankle held up and that's the most important thing. Sue has been doing some extra training but i haven't been able to up till now but feel i should even if its only a couple of miles in between. My legs ached dreadfully and that hasn't happened for a while. Maybe because i have been cycling a lot. Well hey ho cant dwell on it, but then again why not. I want to wallow in my misery!!
I could feel misery creeping up behind me again! its been a while since i felt her breath on my neck and her cloak of blackness enfold me in her cold embrace. I i eluded her, just, but i wonder for how long?
So last night after my run i went to bed early!!! and i was up at 3am bright eyed and bushy tailed! decided to go back to bed with a cup of tea. Awoke again at 5.30am and decided to go for a run and i did!!! In the dark, ipod strapped on and off i went. I could feel myself getting dizzy after a few yards!!! oops no breakfast! but i kept going and did 2 miles round the block. Ankle felt sore though so wont run tomorrow!! MANAGED TO FALL UP THE STAIRS AT WORK TWICE!!! How stupid was that, straight onto my wrists eek!!cant afford another broken wrist!! and jarred the ankle. Will i ever be fit!!
I'm an accident waiting to happen, just so clumsy!!
Strange day at work really, spent the morning shopping for bits for one of the lounges so it was a good morning, problem is you never get caught up, but then do we ever?
Meetings this afternoon, left a pile of papers on the desk, ah well they will still be waiting for me when i return.
Tom has got his bungalow! yippee so he will be moving out soon into his own space. I'm not sure how things will go but we can but try.
Tim's not been well tonight and had to lay down on the bed for a while. No Doctor, just wont see anyone. I couldn't but help thinking that i wouldn't know what to do if anything happened to him. I cant go there, no,no,no!!!
Is it called burying ones head in the sand? yes!!! but I'm up to the waist if that is the case!!
I found Mikey's wedding vows tonight and it made me so sad. I remember the wedding, he was so proud that day and so in love. Despite everything that happened he loved Claire until he passed away. I wonder if people realise when love that unconditional is given what a gift it is. Probably not. But hey i have become very cynical and hard over the last few months. I think that if you cover yourself with these protective shields you will not get hurt. I wonder how effective they are though.
The weather has changed today its so very cold! and standing outside it rained, it rained leaves!! they were everywhere, being dragged away from the branches by the wind in huge amounts. It was amazing. No camera either, isn't that always the way.
Tim's been talking today about missed opportunities. We made our decisions in the past and cant change them we can only look forward. Each day is a struggle for me and i just go from day to day and have i suppose become very selfish, i have changed!!! i have never thought of putting myself first and i guess that's what i have been doing and hang the consequences! lts hope i don't rue the day so to speak.
Do you know i may just do some decorating this week, just for a change!! May though i hasten to add!!
I'm running on Sunday with my great nephew and niece, they have taken pity on me and said we will help auntie Sue! i should be ashamed of myself and said no but to be honest i need as much help as i can so i said thank you!!! You never know that may be just the thing i need. Only a few miles though and save myself for the mid week runs.
We have entered a 10 mile run in December and that's not too far away so i have to get going!!!
Physio on Thursday and i hope that will be positive. Its been so long since i have been fit. Honestly, i don't think i really recovered from the injury i had before i went on holiday in June!
Well I'm off to check Tim and then bed because Tomorrow is another day.................
Friday, 11 November 2011
Wednesday, 9 November 2011
Day 441/442/443/445/446/447
A week a whole week has gone by. Not through pleasure i may say.
Well the euphoria of the last blog didn't last very long. Went to physio Thursday feeling fab only to be told the the ligament was not healing as it should and i did too much on Tuesday! but the ankle felt fine. However since the last session of physio and the exercise regime its feeling sore so no running since then. I could have gone on Tuesday but had to stay at work till 8pm!
All the late nights and additional working hours has taken its toll on Tim and he is now really fed up with it. But what to do????
We are fast approaching the 12th again and its a date that just doesn't get any easier coping with. Still it will be Saturday and i can wallow a bit. It will be 14 months since we lost Mikey and a day doesn't go by without him being in our thoughts.
The weekend was spent on the computer working!!! Monday well i was feeling fairly OK. Tuesday well what a day!! We had our validation and other issues which certainly affected the outcome. That means back to the drawing board again!!! very disappointing. I'm so tired!
Today i had a meeting with my boss and i have asked for leave next week.
Tim was surprised and asked what i had planned. Days out was my reply!!! and i still have a week to take, but i need to chill and do some extra running otherwise i will not cope with next year.
Tonight back at work till gone midnight!! and I'm getting older.
I will work out a plan of action whilst i am off.
Been taking more photos and must try to get them downloaded!
Christmas is coming and not looking forward to that.
Toms been looking for somewhere to live that will let him have his dog and fingers crossed for that. I hope he will feel more settled and then do something about his house in Doncaster.
Duke continues to grow, and grow and grow some more. He is as tall as me when he jumps up with his paws over my shoulders. When will he stop growing.
I'm now going to work out how long it is till the marathon and work out some sort of training plan. Must get going!!! cannot afford to dawdle
So I'm tired and a tad fed up but at least tomorrow is another day!!!
Well the euphoria of the last blog didn't last very long. Went to physio Thursday feeling fab only to be told the the ligament was not healing as it should and i did too much on Tuesday! but the ankle felt fine. However since the last session of physio and the exercise regime its feeling sore so no running since then. I could have gone on Tuesday but had to stay at work till 8pm!
All the late nights and additional working hours has taken its toll on Tim and he is now really fed up with it. But what to do????
We are fast approaching the 12th again and its a date that just doesn't get any easier coping with. Still it will be Saturday and i can wallow a bit. It will be 14 months since we lost Mikey and a day doesn't go by without him being in our thoughts.
The weekend was spent on the computer working!!! Monday well i was feeling fairly OK. Tuesday well what a day!! We had our validation and other issues which certainly affected the outcome. That means back to the drawing board again!!! very disappointing. I'm so tired!
Today i had a meeting with my boss and i have asked for leave next week.
Tim was surprised and asked what i had planned. Days out was my reply!!! and i still have a week to take, but i need to chill and do some extra running otherwise i will not cope with next year.
Tonight back at work till gone midnight!! and I'm getting older.
I will work out a plan of action whilst i am off.
Been taking more photos and must try to get them downloaded!
Christmas is coming and not looking forward to that.
Toms been looking for somewhere to live that will let him have his dog and fingers crossed for that. I hope he will feel more settled and then do something about his house in Doncaster.
Duke continues to grow, and grow and grow some more. He is as tall as me when he jumps up with his paws over my shoulders. When will he stop growing.
I'm now going to work out how long it is till the marathon and work out some sort of training plan. Must get going!!! cannot afford to dawdle
So I'm tired and a tad fed up but at least tomorrow is another day!!!
Wednesday, 2 November 2011
Day 437/438/439/440
OK so its another 4 days. Good or bad, well that's to be decided.
Well i thought about running on Sunday and i guess i felt it was too risky! ankle seems to be getting there, sore now rather than painful.
Sue hasn't got a place up to now in the Olympic stadium run. Tim thinks he will come, Tom doubts it. Tim said i need to train harder to ensure i don't become a laughing stock!! How dare he! he thought it wouldn't look too good if i passed by a rhino or some other person in fancy dress! Well i said thanks for the support. Penny dropped, he realised it shouldn't have come out like that. Um.
We had a lovely long walk with Duke who decided that after 6 miles he wanted to rest! and lay down in the road looking very soulful. We sat outside our old house on a bench and talked about the time we spent there. Nice in a way. Eventually we all got home!
Monday loomed and all went surprisingly well!!! good inspection, yippee, one less weight to carry around.
Tuesday, running. Went surprisingly well and managed to run 5.6 miles with just two short ankle rest periods where we walked. Really pleased with how things went. Oh yes got up early for physio only to get there to find i was two days early. Oops.
Today another constructive day. Managed to get a lot done! getting there, slowly.
Tonight went to do some work on the computer only to find i had major problem, risk of losing everything. Tom managed to get me up and running in safe mode and then said save everything mum or you will lose it. I remember the summer when i had the virus that wasn't a virus!! and the problem we had getting some of the things back. So it was a visit to my niece and asked her to help.
I filled all my memory sticks and still not enough room! up to Tesco and bought a hard drive!! it has taken until midnight to save all my bits but job done!!! Lesson learned.
Tim went to bed whilst we were still saving info so will have to tell him tomorrow how much it was, oops again.
Sue wont be running tomorrow because she is in Scotland but i will go anyway, i need the practice. If all is well at physio will ask how much i can do now. Perhaps i can run without a stop, but i very wary now of over doing it, lesson well learnt!!!
I am having the morning at home to catch up on my work as i didn't get it done tonight. Have another visit due Friday so want to be prepared.
The weather is so mild for the time of year although we did have a spot of rain tonight, the Christmas lights are going up in town!!! and the shops full of seasonal bits! it seems to get here sooner and sooner.
Do i get my work done now or wait? wait i think. I certainly do not feel as stressed as i have done recently and just generally feel less rushed and sad. That's good but i am always very aware that tomorrow is another day.......................
Well i thought about running on Sunday and i guess i felt it was too risky! ankle seems to be getting there, sore now rather than painful.
Sue hasn't got a place up to now in the Olympic stadium run. Tim thinks he will come, Tom doubts it. Tim said i need to train harder to ensure i don't become a laughing stock!! How dare he! he thought it wouldn't look too good if i passed by a rhino or some other person in fancy dress! Well i said thanks for the support. Penny dropped, he realised it shouldn't have come out like that. Um.
We had a lovely long walk with Duke who decided that after 6 miles he wanted to rest! and lay down in the road looking very soulful. We sat outside our old house on a bench and talked about the time we spent there. Nice in a way. Eventually we all got home!
Monday loomed and all went surprisingly well!!! good inspection, yippee, one less weight to carry around.
Tuesday, running. Went surprisingly well and managed to run 5.6 miles with just two short ankle rest periods where we walked. Really pleased with how things went. Oh yes got up early for physio only to get there to find i was two days early. Oops.
Today another constructive day. Managed to get a lot done! getting there, slowly.
Tonight went to do some work on the computer only to find i had major problem, risk of losing everything. Tom managed to get me up and running in safe mode and then said save everything mum or you will lose it. I remember the summer when i had the virus that wasn't a virus!! and the problem we had getting some of the things back. So it was a visit to my niece and asked her to help.
I filled all my memory sticks and still not enough room! up to Tesco and bought a hard drive!! it has taken until midnight to save all my bits but job done!!! Lesson learned.
Tim went to bed whilst we were still saving info so will have to tell him tomorrow how much it was, oops again.
Sue wont be running tomorrow because she is in Scotland but i will go anyway, i need the practice. If all is well at physio will ask how much i can do now. Perhaps i can run without a stop, but i very wary now of over doing it, lesson well learnt!!!
I am having the morning at home to catch up on my work as i didn't get it done tonight. Have another visit due Friday so want to be prepared.
The weather is so mild for the time of year although we did have a spot of rain tonight, the Christmas lights are going up in town!!! and the shops full of seasonal bits! it seems to get here sooner and sooner.
Do i get my work done now or wait? wait i think. I certainly do not feel as stressed as i have done recently and just generally feel less rushed and sad. That's good but i am always very aware that tomorrow is another day.......................
Saturday, 29 October 2011
Day 436
Oh my word!!!! after last nights miserable blog i decided to check my e mails and well i nearly fell off my chair! i have been successful in getting a ballot place in the Olympic stadium run next year!!!
5,000 places i have one, yippee, whoop whoop!!! and then the realisation hit. Oh goodness what have i done now.
Mikey said to do one new thing a month and i have been trying hard to stick to that and now this is something else!!
Mikey wanted so desperately to be here for the Olympics and in one of his last conversations with us was did we think he would be and we said yes! how wrong were we. We couldn't imagine he wouldn't be. But we said if not we would make sure we watched it and thought of him. The reason i took up running was in the hope i could do the London marathon as there was no chance i could be in the Olympics, now i will be running in the stadium and be one of the first athletes to run a race there. How special will that be. I wonder Mikey, will that make me an Olympic athlete, lol. I wonder what you would have said to all of this. I do so hope i do you proud and will try my best not to be last!!!! But oh dear the film Run Fat Boy Ron really springs to mind. I can just see the local paper and the headlines 'Fenlands Finest!!!' and now i cant stop laughing. I really do not fit the athletic profile. Just a 50 something woman, who has never run, doing this. oh my oh my!!
So today was a better day and Tim has spoken about almost nothing else, he is really pleased for me. Now i have to think who will be my guests as i can take two. Decisions decisions!!!
We managed to get out today and went to Graffam Water and we took Duke, he was such a good boy. I also took the camera with the new lens fitted, i have yet to see how the snaps came out.
Went out on the bike and trying to keep the exercise going. I am now going to get a film and lay in bed with a cup of tea and try to relax. My stomach is still doing gymnastics!!! i haven't heard from my running buddy, i wonder if she has a place, i cant imagine running on my own :(
Whilst i am happy about the news I'm also sad because i miss Mikey and know he would be saying well done mum he would be quite proud of me i think! and also shaking his head from side to side saying you must be mad! Love you Mikey, wish you were here xxx
I think i will give running a try tomorrow just a short one, the ankle feels a bit sore but OK, should i? see still indecisive! ah well tomorrow is another day
5,000 places i have one, yippee, whoop whoop!!! and then the realisation hit. Oh goodness what have i done now.
Mikey said to do one new thing a month and i have been trying hard to stick to that and now this is something else!!
Mikey wanted so desperately to be here for the Olympics and in one of his last conversations with us was did we think he would be and we said yes! how wrong were we. We couldn't imagine he wouldn't be. But we said if not we would make sure we watched it and thought of him. The reason i took up running was in the hope i could do the London marathon as there was no chance i could be in the Olympics, now i will be running in the stadium and be one of the first athletes to run a race there. How special will that be. I wonder Mikey, will that make me an Olympic athlete, lol. I wonder what you would have said to all of this. I do so hope i do you proud and will try my best not to be last!!!! But oh dear the film Run Fat Boy Ron really springs to mind. I can just see the local paper and the headlines 'Fenlands Finest!!!' and now i cant stop laughing. I really do not fit the athletic profile. Just a 50 something woman, who has never run, doing this. oh my oh my!!
So today was a better day and Tim has spoken about almost nothing else, he is really pleased for me. Now i have to think who will be my guests as i can take two. Decisions decisions!!!
We managed to get out today and went to Graffam Water and we took Duke, he was such a good boy. I also took the camera with the new lens fitted, i have yet to see how the snaps came out.
Went out on the bike and trying to keep the exercise going. I am now going to get a film and lay in bed with a cup of tea and try to relax. My stomach is still doing gymnastics!!! i haven't heard from my running buddy, i wonder if she has a place, i cant imagine running on my own :(
Whilst i am happy about the news I'm also sad because i miss Mikey and know he would be saying well done mum he would be quite proud of me i think! and also shaking his head from side to side saying you must be mad! Love you Mikey, wish you were here xxx
I think i will give running a try tomorrow just a short one, the ankle feels a bit sore but OK, should i? see still indecisive! ah well tomorrow is another day
Friday, 28 October 2011
Day 431/432/433/434/435
5 whole days of not blogging and maybe that's the lesson to me!! this is where i let all my frustrations out and boy do i need to do that. But where to begin! so much has happened since Sunday where i was saying how quickly the time has gone. Life is passing me by or I'm on this huge tidal wave of life and lord only knows where I'm going to be tossed up.
I have never been or felt so indecisive in my life and i just cant express how much i feel adrift from myself.
Oh i can reflect and ponder on where and when these changes have arisen from and i could look back on my blog but i cant look back, not yet its still too painful.
I have changed! that's what i wanted to do and it was at one time so very positive. The changes were measurable and i felt in control of the. Not now!!
I have lost my rudder so to speak. Its very lonely even in a crowd at work, that's the root of the problem i think, too many changes all at once and Tim umm well that's another issue and one i really don't know what to do about. I keep closing the door on whats going wrong i don't seem to be able to do anything right!
Yep i know that's not unusual and all relationships have blips that's what it all about but i feel I'm trawling through mud.
Strange isn't it how I'm using all these terms! just goes to show i haven't a clue in which direction to go, what to sort out first or can i even be bothered.
Is this another part of grieving? how the hell do i know. I was almost numb even moribund now I'm so angry all of the time. I have developed teeth and claws and have almost bitten through my own arms in frustration and despair! and why? what do i hope to achieve. Apart from almost having no limbs at all now so to speak! the legs have been traumatised through running!!! ah well, i have got all my bits and bobs its all a figure of speech!
I have been so tired this week more than usual, maybe I'm depressed. I haven't got time for that.
Delegation may be the key but having seen the consequences for a very close friend it scares the ...... out of me.
So many, many things are happening, just solve one problems and there is this enormous beast lurking in the background raising its ugly head to cause more mayhem!!
Oh I'm moaning and grumbling like a good one tonight! but hey ho that's what i need to do. My fingers and pounding away at a rapid rate of knots!, obviously haven't chewed hard enough because they are still functioning!!!
So apart from having to spend time out of the office and making the attempts to catch up and have proven to be virtually impossible what have i done.
Well the running has gone well, all be it slowly the ankle is holding up, still sore but at least I'm walking on it with no problems even after the runs
Tuesday i ran for a mile at a time with short break and ran 4 miles in total. Thursday it was raining!! the sky was lit up with lightening and there was a rumble of thunder but off we went and i have to say we were running well. Didn't run as far but ran for 1 1/2 miles and then did a 2 mile stint and still managed to do nearly 5 miles. Lets hope i get good news at Physio Tuesday because time is getting on and we need to work towards increasing the mileage!! Got some races coming up, one is a 10 mile in December so i hope I'm fit!!!
I did take some time back on Thursday and hoped to spend some time out with Tim and Duke but it was the one day of the week which was lousy, typical still here's hoping the week end will be kind. Before you know it i will be back on the treadmill again, not the exercise one either!!!
Well i do feel better for that!!! So maybe, just maybe i will enjoy the weekend, but who knows tomorrow is another day after all!!!
I have never been or felt so indecisive in my life and i just cant express how much i feel adrift from myself.
Oh i can reflect and ponder on where and when these changes have arisen from and i could look back on my blog but i cant look back, not yet its still too painful.
I have changed! that's what i wanted to do and it was at one time so very positive. The changes were measurable and i felt in control of the. Not now!!
I have lost my rudder so to speak. Its very lonely even in a crowd at work, that's the root of the problem i think, too many changes all at once and Tim umm well that's another issue and one i really don't know what to do about. I keep closing the door on whats going wrong i don't seem to be able to do anything right!
Yep i know that's not unusual and all relationships have blips that's what it all about but i feel I'm trawling through mud.
Strange isn't it how I'm using all these terms! just goes to show i haven't a clue in which direction to go, what to sort out first or can i even be bothered.
Is this another part of grieving? how the hell do i know. I was almost numb even moribund now I'm so angry all of the time. I have developed teeth and claws and have almost bitten through my own arms in frustration and despair! and why? what do i hope to achieve. Apart from almost having no limbs at all now so to speak! the legs have been traumatised through running!!! ah well, i have got all my bits and bobs its all a figure of speech!
I have been so tired this week more than usual, maybe I'm depressed. I haven't got time for that.
Delegation may be the key but having seen the consequences for a very close friend it scares the ...... out of me.
So many, many things are happening, just solve one problems and there is this enormous beast lurking in the background raising its ugly head to cause more mayhem!!
Oh I'm moaning and grumbling like a good one tonight! but hey ho that's what i need to do. My fingers and pounding away at a rapid rate of knots!, obviously haven't chewed hard enough because they are still functioning!!!
So apart from having to spend time out of the office and making the attempts to catch up and have proven to be virtually impossible what have i done.
Well the running has gone well, all be it slowly the ankle is holding up, still sore but at least I'm walking on it with no problems even after the runs
Tuesday i ran for a mile at a time with short break and ran 4 miles in total. Thursday it was raining!! the sky was lit up with lightening and there was a rumble of thunder but off we went and i have to say we were running well. Didn't run as far but ran for 1 1/2 miles and then did a 2 mile stint and still managed to do nearly 5 miles. Lets hope i get good news at Physio Tuesday because time is getting on and we need to work towards increasing the mileage!! Got some races coming up, one is a 10 mile in December so i hope I'm fit!!!
I did take some time back on Thursday and hoped to spend some time out with Tim and Duke but it was the one day of the week which was lousy, typical still here's hoping the week end will be kind. Before you know it i will be back on the treadmill again, not the exercise one either!!!
Well i do feel better for that!!! So maybe, just maybe i will enjoy the weekend, but who knows tomorrow is another day after all!!!
Sunday, 23 October 2011
Day 427/428/429/430
Well I'm going to start with a photo of my foot. I have lamented about this injury for so long i have managed to take a snap, so here's hoping!!
Physio taping to support the two tendons on the left and a muscle to the top of the foot!
Anyway i went running Thursday! if you can call it that. I must though cos it was quite an effort.
Managed to run for 3/4 mile and walk for 1/4 mile and did this 4 times and it held up. Roll on next week and hope to do more! We shall see.
I have to say it lifted my spirits and boy did i need that.
It has been a horrible week really, just one thing after another.
The only good thing about this week has been the weather and we have had some lovely days even though a bit chilly.
I was so pleased when Friday came and thought about my much longed for week end.
The problem has been that it went so quickly.
Saturday i spent going out for a bike ride, a lovely long walk with Tim and Duke and then a walk into town. I met a man who knew Tim and hadn't seen him for a while and asked how he was getting on.
To start with he didn't know that Tim had left work following his brain Hemorrhage. He asked how the boys were and didn't know we had lost Mikey. He then said he lost his son several years ago, he was only 32 years old and then lost his wife a few months later. How very very sad. He told me it never goes away, the pain, you just learn to get through the days. In some ways this made feel a little better at least I'm not mad!!
Its been 14 months since we lost Mikey. 14 long sad miserable months, but at least the running is a place to go and forget your troubles. I am concentrating so hard for an hour just to breathe and get along a mile or two!! oh yes and learning to cope with the injury pain barrier!!
Today i went to the Hare Arms for lunch with my sisters and nieces, well at least two of them! and three of the hubbies, Tim decided not to go. It was a lovely day.
A walk this evening and my word the wind was brisk and cold! still the sun was watery but at least still out!
Now its almost time for bed and work in the morning! now how quick was that..
Tom seems happier but has a dreadful cold, i wonder who will be next.
Duke has a new bed and loves it! he looks so snug. How he is growing. He loves cookies!
I have taken so many photos recently and am so pleased i bought the camera, i wonder what happened to Mikes? i think we now have time to reflect and think about lots of things. I expect Claire has now moved on, well we knew that had happened before Mikey died. I wonder if she thinks about him at all, i hope so.
Anyway i am not going down that road again! i must keep remembering that tomorrow is another day!
Physio taping to support the two tendons on the left and a muscle to the top of the foot!
Anyway i went running Thursday! if you can call it that. I must though cos it was quite an effort.
Managed to run for 3/4 mile and walk for 1/4 mile and did this 4 times and it held up. Roll on next week and hope to do more! We shall see.
I have to say it lifted my spirits and boy did i need that.
It has been a horrible week really, just one thing after another.
The only good thing about this week has been the weather and we have had some lovely days even though a bit chilly.
I was so pleased when Friday came and thought about my much longed for week end.
The problem has been that it went so quickly.
Saturday i spent going out for a bike ride, a lovely long walk with Tim and Duke and then a walk into town. I met a man who knew Tim and hadn't seen him for a while and asked how he was getting on.
To start with he didn't know that Tim had left work following his brain Hemorrhage. He asked how the boys were and didn't know we had lost Mikey. He then said he lost his son several years ago, he was only 32 years old and then lost his wife a few months later. How very very sad. He told me it never goes away, the pain, you just learn to get through the days. In some ways this made feel a little better at least I'm not mad!!
Its been 14 months since we lost Mikey. 14 long sad miserable months, but at least the running is a place to go and forget your troubles. I am concentrating so hard for an hour just to breathe and get along a mile or two!! oh yes and learning to cope with the injury pain barrier!!
Today i went to the Hare Arms for lunch with my sisters and nieces, well at least two of them! and three of the hubbies, Tim decided not to go. It was a lovely day.
A walk this evening and my word the wind was brisk and cold! still the sun was watery but at least still out!
Now its almost time for bed and work in the morning! now how quick was that..
Tom seems happier but has a dreadful cold, i wonder who will be next.
Duke has a new bed and loves it! he looks so snug. How he is growing. He loves cookies!
I have taken so many photos recently and am so pleased i bought the camera, i wonder what happened to Mikes? i think we now have time to reflect and think about lots of things. I expect Claire has now moved on, well we knew that had happened before Mikey died. I wonder if she thinks about him at all, i hope so.
Anyway i am not going down that road again! i must keep remembering that tomorrow is another day!
Wednesday, 19 October 2011
Day 423.424,425.426
Four days!!! and what a lot has happened!
Sunday, a beautiful day. The fens were glorious and once again wearing their Sunday best. The camera came out and we walked through the drove. 5 minutes walk to get there, how lucky are we. The sun was low and the light just fabulous. I'm no expert yet with the camera but that and the running have given me so much joy. For a short time worries are no more and I'm just absorbed in the beauty that is around me.
I managed the uneven ground without a wince! i felt the ankle was improving. Duke was running free and just enjoying the time out with us.
Tom had recovered from his night out, the joys of being young! And how we miss Mikey!
I wasn't so worried about going to work and happy with the decisions i made. Thank goodness i did!!! Monday was just so extraordinary!! if i wrote a book you would think it was a best selling work of fiction!! I can laugh about it now but i do so wish i could share the events of the say here but i think not!!!
The one thing i can say is that on these occasions we are allowed to run. Run i did even though i was not supposed to.
Tim received a call from work to tell him i wouldn't be home at lunch time and the afternoon just followed the same trend.
Tuesday it was the day of reckoning with my physio. Up early and yes the ankle is improving, more exercises a new strapping and instructions about what i can do and what i cannot. I could run but only for 3 miles and that needed to be interval running. OK that's not so bad i thought, i can manage that. Any increased soreness and i would need to stop and walk. Back to see her in two weeks.
By the time i had finished work i felt it best not to go, the ankle felt sore and i just was not going to risk it. I did that before and it got me into the pickle i am in now. Went for a walk with Tim instead.
Went back to work tonight and stayed till 2am. Meetings with the staff and achieved some stuff.
Feeling positive this morning, action plan and raring to go until, unannounced inspection. Oh lord. Phone call to Tim wont be home for lunch!!!!
Meeting at work this evening and now reflecting on the week.
I am feeling a little more settled and obviously this was laying heavily on me and there is a sense of relief!
Hoping for better things!! Tom seems settled today, always a good thing!! I will go running tomorrow night, especially after watching Run Fat Boy Run tonight on TV. Reminds me that this could be me next year!!!
Lots to organise tomorrow but i can see it as a challenge now not a chore!
Its so cold this evening! almost feel the snow moving towards us, frosty mornings and dragons breath. Love it!!
I am thinking of a friend, she has been such a support to me and i am concerned for her. It just makes you reflect even more that time does not stop, things still happen, other people experience bad times.
Duke
Fen sky
Just caught the birds in flight to. Well to bed, after all tomorrow is another day.
Sunday, a beautiful day. The fens were glorious and once again wearing their Sunday best. The camera came out and we walked through the drove. 5 minutes walk to get there, how lucky are we. The sun was low and the light just fabulous. I'm no expert yet with the camera but that and the running have given me so much joy. For a short time worries are no more and I'm just absorbed in the beauty that is around me.
I managed the uneven ground without a wince! i felt the ankle was improving. Duke was running free and just enjoying the time out with us.
Tom had recovered from his night out, the joys of being young! And how we miss Mikey!
I wasn't so worried about going to work and happy with the decisions i made. Thank goodness i did!!! Monday was just so extraordinary!! if i wrote a book you would think it was a best selling work of fiction!! I can laugh about it now but i do so wish i could share the events of the say here but i think not!!!
The one thing i can say is that on these occasions we are allowed to run. Run i did even though i was not supposed to.
Tim received a call from work to tell him i wouldn't be home at lunch time and the afternoon just followed the same trend.
Tuesday it was the day of reckoning with my physio. Up early and yes the ankle is improving, more exercises a new strapping and instructions about what i can do and what i cannot. I could run but only for 3 miles and that needed to be interval running. OK that's not so bad i thought, i can manage that. Any increased soreness and i would need to stop and walk. Back to see her in two weeks.
By the time i had finished work i felt it best not to go, the ankle felt sore and i just was not going to risk it. I did that before and it got me into the pickle i am in now. Went for a walk with Tim instead.
Went back to work tonight and stayed till 2am. Meetings with the staff and achieved some stuff.
Feeling positive this morning, action plan and raring to go until, unannounced inspection. Oh lord. Phone call to Tim wont be home for lunch!!!!
Meeting at work this evening and now reflecting on the week.
I am feeling a little more settled and obviously this was laying heavily on me and there is a sense of relief!
Hoping for better things!! Tom seems settled today, always a good thing!! I will go running tomorrow night, especially after watching Run Fat Boy Run tonight on TV. Reminds me that this could be me next year!!!
Lots to organise tomorrow but i can see it as a challenge now not a chore!
Its so cold this evening! almost feel the snow moving towards us, frosty mornings and dragons breath. Love it!!
I am thinking of a friend, she has been such a support to me and i am concerned for her. It just makes you reflect even more that time does not stop, things still happen, other people experience bad times.
Duke
Fen sky
Just caught the birds in flight to. Well to bed, after all tomorrow is another day.
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