Day 219

Managed to blog tonight!!!!

Still its been a very busy day. With no time to think about personal things. Work, work, work!!! but then it is Monday!!

Home at lunch time and i have to say a lovely lunch made by Tim. Work and then home just before 6pm and then swimming tonight!! no time to sit and think!!

By the time i got home and made supper Tim was off to bed.

We have so little time now to converse, but i wonder how many normal families actually communicate with each other.

So here i am and I'm almost dropping off to sleep and my head is almost on the keyboard!! not a pretty sight.

Plan for the morning, off to do assessment meetings in the afternoon! that will be fun! running tomorrow night and the end of another day. Before i know it it will be Friday and our Ritz trip.

I have my passport paperwork completed and will get that sent off next month. Eek can you imagine in this day and age i have never flown, so i guess that's next.

It will soon be Mikeys birthday and i can feel myself getting sadder when i think about that. It will be another milestone.
 Its been almost 8 months, should i be counting? well i am and who's to tell me what to do.
My friend Di says whatever i do and think is OK. If i feel sad that's OK to. If i feel like shouting and screaming that's OK to. Di never makes judgements she just reads my blog and usually leaves me a message the next day. If i don't answer she doesn't mind and will just leave another message the next day.
Friends like this are like gold dust and should be cherished. I wonder if she knows how much she means to me.
We don't go out together and we don't visit, but that's the whole essence of friendship, you don't need to because you know that if i was to call for help she would be on the doorstep before i put the phone down. Someone who gives personal space, but stays close by using the net. Cant beat that. Love that girl.

Then there are the friends who keep in touch who were Mikeys friends, its as if there is still a small piece of him left behind. More than a memory, he seems to be just around the corner, out of reach but there anyway. That's what they give me and i am so very grateful for that. I am truly blessed in that way.

I am trying to be positive today but tomorrow is another day................