Day 221

I'm going to try and make this a positive blog tonight, yeah who am i trying to kid!!

So the day started out nice and sunny and got hotter during the day. It was such a glorious day that reminded me summer is just around the corner. The sky was blue and there were a whisper of clouds. All seemed well in the world!

I went to town in my lunch break and bought a handbag big enough to carry my camera and a pair of sandals on Friday. I keep looking at the two dresses i have to chose from for Friday. I know there isn't much room to breathe let alone walk in one, goodness can i lose half a stone by the day after tomorrow? no i didn't think so but the other just about shows every lump and bump. I'm not going to worry about it, after all who really cares!

So today and work, i have had a thought about that tonight. Why do we continually beat ourselves up with a stick? its because we care about our job, its because unemployment is at its highest and its a mean world out there regarding jobs, dog eat dog! and everyone is after the one you have!! so we work hard, we do more than we should, we work longer than we should because we really cant afford to lose the job we have!! Our bosses increase our work loads, we have to cope with the stream lining, then manage the staff who have had hours reduced, that as well as the day to day things, which sadly get further and further down the priority list until it comes and bites you!
We really don't have time to "sit and stare" and we should. Life is so very precious and I'm not getting any younger. Tonight Tim said one day i will come to the door and he will ask who i am! yes its that bad.
I used to have really good time management skills, now they have gone to pot!
I was always used to multi tasking and schedules. Planning was essential when Mikey was smaller how the hell did i manage! caring for him, doing I.V's hospital appointments, open uni courses, caring for the home and working night duty. Tim was working as well then so it was housework cooking etc, taking Tom to rugby, swimming etc Mikey to cubs and all his play practices. Mikey volunteering my services at school. God i can remember making all the rat costumes one year!!!! School outings as a helper, going on a Victorian day trip to Sacrewell and having to be a pupil in there Victorian class. I got off laughing and was removed from the class, i do believe i have some photos somewhere i will have to put them on here. It got worse when we went outside to exercise. On top of that we were all given Victorian names and mine was Ethel!! oh and the riding!!! i am afraid of horses but Mikey said my mum will help!!! every Friday!  Tom enlisted me in the woodwork class to help, um that wasn't such a success, and the rounders evenings after school was a nightmare!
Mind you i was 7 stone and fit as a butchers dog then!!!

Now I'm older, and more weary yet I'm swimming twice a week and running twice week, badly at both but I'm making an effort!
I'm wondering if that car will be about tomorrow! i expect the driver will be looking for a sequel to last nights trip!!! well I'm going to run on the path ! that should do the trick i hope!

Well i must go and get that handbag out of the car now Tim's asleep! i will just tell him I've had it in the wardrobe ages and never used it if he notices it!!! I'm sure I'm not the only woman who has done something similar!
Its off to Newmarket tomorrow for a meeting! another day out of the office = more work to catch up on, Ah well Tomorrow is another day.................