So i have yet more to do, i have been so incredibly busy, still i managed to get home for lunch and Tim had prepared a really good wholesome meal! and he had been to the hairdressers, i really cant remember the last time he went! i am so pleased because no more moans that i have not cut his hair right, Yippee, cartwheels and all that.
The sun was out today although the wind was rather nippy, a typical April day. The days just seem so fresh and clean, good to be out and about.
Running tonight and i didn't manage to do as much as usual, ankle had blown up but persevered and managed my first set and Sues knee was giving her a bit of trouble so we learnt from my previous mistake and didn't do too much. When i got home it was a bag if ice cubes on my ankle! i have to say it is a lot better now, so I'm hoping by Thursday it will be even better!
Swimming tomorrow and that helped when i went on Tuesday.
Its the 12th today and 8 months since we lost Mikey, its strange how dates and days have such a profound effect on me. It sneaks up on you and suddenly i feel like weeping. Its hard to explain.
Misery hovers in the background, but being so active now on Tuesdays and Thursdays keeps her at bay, for now!
I was speaking about Mikey and how long it has been and the person said how quickly that time has gone, and yet for us its a life time and yesterday all in one. My tomorrows are all hurdles to get through and i sit here at night just thinking its another day over. The effort it takes sometimes overwhelms me and i can feel myself inside having a panic, a wishing that i could just run and leave everything behind. I have no plan where i would go, i have no idea the length of time i would be away, maybe only for a minute just to stop that awful sensation, I'm not sure.
I just feel there is something missing, I'm not whole anymore, i have lost my rudder! adrift on the sea of life.
The days i enjoy are so quickly forgotten and there is always something happening that we can relate to Mikey. Last week end it was the Grand National, Mikey always picked a winner or at least in the top 3. This years Grand Prix Mikey would be phoning to talk about the race and Eddie Jordan and David Coulthard! well I don't know what Eddie was wearing this week end but the shirts of his collars were huge!!! Vetel has won two races for Red Bull but i wished it was Mark Webber! Next time i hope!
This coming week end is the Marathon and the next one Easter all times for our family to remember.
My goodness Toms going away on Sunday! i hope he will be OK i worry about him so!
To weight! managed to keep to my points today Yay!!! i hope it lasts.
To bed i think, but before i do a couple of pictures
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Tim in our garden Why do i take photographs, they are memories of our yesterdays and are a reminder that tomorrow is another day... |
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