Well its 4 days of blogging today!!! i am getting prepared for being off line for two weeks after Friday.
It has been a tough few days. Tim has not been well again! He was woken with a really bad head, he said it was like the time he had a brain hemorrhage! To say i panicked is a minor understatement! Out came the BP machine and to my surprise it was very low!! He didn't want to see a Dr of course!! Tim has already said he does not want to go to hospital again! He doesn't want treatment either. I suppose this could be called an advanced directive!. In my book if he cant say anything he goes!!!!
I cant begin to imagine what my life would be without him as well. I have spent the last few nights with a book so i can hear him if he is unwell. Two nights running he has been having bad dreams and has been calling out in his sleep. Of course he cant recall any of this in the mornings!
Tonight i feel i can sit here with the door closed and hammer away on the key board fairly confident all will be well! At least tonight I'm not just passing time on facebook.
Tim insists i just carry on and he is fine! So i went running last night and amazed my self that i completed the course for Thursday! ran all the way. Ankle is still very painful when standing or sitting but OK when i run. How odd is that.
We have been for some long walks and have chatted as we walk. Both of us looking forward to getting away from it all.
Work has been tough and this week i expect no different! Perhaps I'm getting old!
I saw sister Joy over the week end. Lovely to see her and we hope to go to Norwich soon to see our cousin. We will arrange it on my return.
Mikey is very much in both our thoughts constantly and we have both said we feel that at any time we can bring him home, call him or have him on line. It doesn't go away. It hasn't changed for us this burning desire to turn back time. Wouldn't it be grand if we could.
Its been almost 10 months and seems like yesterday. Tonight we said that he will always be 25 to us and when asked i still say we have two sons.
Toms coming home tomorrow and hes staying till Friday. I do wish he could find someone else for company. We are certainly coming to terms with our mortality. Tim said that he is pleased that Mikey is here with us and not down Eastwood alone. Tim also wondered what would become of us when we are no longer here.. I said i expect we will all be with Mikey and if Tom never meets anyone ever again, i hope he will be with us too. A family together again. Still you just don't know what the future holds.
Diet continues to go well although yet again i haven't lost a bean! must be doing something wrong. Tims pleased that i have stuck with it and has also said i must carry on whilst away! Tim also said i should get up early and go for a run each day!! Don't think that will happen though!
Having a bank holiday today means that we have short working week so i am going to be hard pushed to get everything sorted for our holidays. Looks like i will be multi tasking.
I have burnt a candle every day since i started this blog i wonder how i will manage when i am away. I think i will ask Diana if she will light one for me. I'm sure she will if she isn't away but i have a feeling we are away together. Ah well i am sure i can work something out.
I have been using a Gaimin hoop and that's so hard!!! but does give a good work out.
Well I'm going to check on Tim and then get ready for bed.
Running tomorrow so i have high hopes of keeping up with some of the more seasoned runners, older ones of course!
Must get my camera unloaded and put on computer and i will share them on here too. That's for later, ah well to bed and tomorrow is another day.......................
No comments:
Post a Comment