Day 191

I awoke to sunshine and the birds singing. Yet i remember what day it is. I wonder if my life is now going to be about remembering dates and days.
Mikey is so missed and i really do try and think about Tom as well but i feel overwhelmed by memories. Trying to remember good times and not just having the important meaningful dates.
I do so wish we still had Mikey, the time filling works for a bit. I can tell myself that I'm getting on with life, but to be honest I'm not. That's not meant to be sad or depressing it just is.

Living has no little meaning, the days pass as small milestones on a path i have found myself on and not really sure how to turn around and get on the one that's Tim's and Toms. I am just kerb crawling and i don't mean that literally!!

Still enough of that, misery hovers over me waiting to pounce and i just cant cope being in her embrace at this point. That is for another day.

Our young friend next door remains in critical care and an attempt to wake him has resulted in the need for him to be sedated again. The patch developed a fault and one of his lungs is not functioning well. I continue to hope for the best for them all.

Tim's been busy in the garden and its looking good.

Its going to snow!!! according to the forecast well there  is an old saying never change a clout before May is out. Perhaps we should heed the old wives tales!!

I'm back on the road tomorrow night and hope all goes well with the knee and i need to get the application in for the marathon next year quite soon. It will be here before we know it.

Tom continues to hope for a move and will be so pleased if it happens. We are so fragmented as a family at the moment, but perhaps its just my expectations of what would be best for us all is flawed. Goodness only knows it wouldn't be the first time i got things wrong!!

I can hardly believe that i have blogged before midnight!!! that has to be a first. Maybe the the start of some early nights and early mornings! i think I'm kidding myself and this is just a blip!!

So, owards and upwards, after all tomorrow is another day....................