Day 200

I really am struggling. The amount of effort its taking just to drag myself through the days are taking there toll.
I know that from some of the comments i have been having.

One example springs swiftly to mind. I went to assess one of our residents in the hospital. on arrival i introduced myself and said i was here to see Mr........... One very observant nurse who sadly only heard the last part of the conversation said oh you have come to see your husband!! Now this lovely man is in his 80's. So not feeling very charitable after hearing that remark asked  'do i look old enough to be his wife' gee i know i look rough some days but surely not that bad!!! face lift looks very appealing. I may have said this once this week but there you go, memory failing too.

So a short blog tonight. I will not be able to blog tomorrow because of the eye surgery, but thanks everyone for your messages and big hug to D who loves me!!!!!! what a friend.

I'm also worried about a beautiful lady called S who is unwell at the moment. I know she is a strong person and i have to say very fit!!!!!! sadly doesn't know her left from her right. Cant wait to hear how her next exercise class goes.

Work continues to be a big rollercoaster ride. I can feel the momentum gathering from the morning and until i leave the building. No respite at all and so much to do. Still can see a small chink of daylight.
The work pressure is taking me away from the things that matter at home and i do feel that i am being robbed of some quiet time to reflect and indeed to think about Mikey. I want to get his photos loaded into albums and i have my snaps to get on as well. I miss reading my books and i just have no time. I know that i swim and run now in the evenings so maybe that's what is cutting my days down. Well the summer is coming and the days are lengthening. The evenings are getting lighter.

I am not a brave person so i am now realising that tomorrow i am having eye surgery. What have i agreed to. I cant really beleive i actually went and had the consultation and then agreed to treatment!!! Still it wont last long, i keep telling myself that. What a baby i am considering all Mikey went through. So Sue just stop whittling on and get a grip!! OK but Mikey told us to do something new every month, i think this is a tad extreme!! ah well best get some rest, apparently i will be sleeping in goggles for a few nights! That's all i need i can only think i will resemble one of those cooks on a motorbike, um two fat ladies!!  Ah well tomorrow is another day.........................