Day 211

I have been so tired today and i really don't know why. I have found it difficult just putting one foot in front of the other.

I found a thing on my profile that said notes. So i looked and i could also see friends notes, Mikeys came up and i spent the time reading what he said this time last year. How he was frightened about his future, not so much dying but about leaving Claire on her own. About being lonely and laying in bed just thinking all the time. I wish we had known i really do. I wish that i had been able to work the computer better as well then i would have been able to find important information that was there, if only i knew how. But i can't change the past. I so wish i was a magician, but even so that task would be to big for them! After all it's only an illusion isnt it.

This morning Tim asked me what i wanted to do. We are still desperately attempting to fill our days and pass the time of day as quickly as we can. Its an effort!

So i decided to go to Daffodil weekend. Two days where the village open itself to the public, hog roasts, sheepdog trials, Morris dancing etc. Well i have no sense of direction i know we started out well but then i kept falling asleep! Tim wasn't happy and said it was a waste of time coming out if all i was going to do was fall asleep. Valid point but obviously i failed in my attempts to stay awake because the next thing i knew we were in a service station and Tim getting out of the car saying i was to drive.

I hadn't a clue where we were! but rather than say, i headed for the exit joined the busy road somewhere and headed off to goodness knows where!  So there i was merrily driving along hoping against hope i would see a signpost saying something i knew! Tim sitting smugly in the passenger seat asking if i knew where i was going, yes i said we are going to Ely i had just spotted a sign saying Newmarket and Ely.

I managed to get us home anyway.

I then went and exchanged some sun glasses i bought yesterday! When i got them home unbeknown to me i hadn't realised they were mirrored! i looked like a 70,s American policeman!
So i bought two pairs just in case and asked Tim when i got home which looked better! Thankfully not mirrored and i kept them both. Tim thought it may be a good idea if i left a pair in the car! I wonder why.

Managed to persuade Tim to go for a walk before my run! and took some photos down by the river. We met an old friend of his and they spent a while talking about their youth!

Home in time for quick cuppa, my phone rang and my partner called to say she was stuck in traffic at Nuneaten and wouldn't make our run but we would go as usual on Tuesday.

I decided that i really must lose a couple of stones so i made some home made veggie soup. It only took three hours! i am sure i was doing something wrong, i have just tasted it and its fine!

Going to join weight watchers on line tomorrow night. No doubt it will take me ages to work things out on the page, and as i have promised myself an early night i better not get started.

Tom rang and he had missed some calls from another Rail company. Tom had applied for another job closer to home and his phone for some reason hadn't put the calls through. I don't understand what went wrong there but he must get himself a replacement. He will call them tomorrow to see what they wanted. I'm not going to get my hopes up. But it would be fab to have him closer to us.

Well to bed and thank goodness that tomorrow is another day............