Day 212

Monday and back to work. I decided to brighten myself up and chose to wear red tights with black today! i was making a statement saying hey! look at me I'm fine. Did it work well i don't know.

Catching up from last week took up most of my day and once again its relentless but it does keep the mind occupied so there is little time to think about sad things.
Work does ensure i focus!!

I have changed my last annual leave day of the year, so instead of Wednesday I'm having tomorrow off. The weatherman predicts rain for Wednesday and wind so tomorrow looks as if it will be the last dry day of the month, so here is hoping.
The plan is for us to go to Holkam and see how far we can walk along the beach before the tide turns!!! An opportunity to take more photos! always a positive.

Its not long now before we head off to the Ritz and i cant believe its been over 2 months since we originally planned it!

We went for our walk tonight, making an effort to spend some time together i the evenings, well I'm off running Tuesdays and Thursdays and Swimming Monday and Wednesday. Back swimming next week because i cant go into the water for another week due to the eye surgery.

My long distance vision is fab now but I'm still struggling with needing reading glasses but that will come no doubt!

With the clocks put forward the evenings are much lighter and it does seem that the days are getting longer. With that gives me more time to think about Mikey. Today has been a little easier and although i realise i will have good days and bad sometimes i just cant get my head around it.
I know that i have been a miserable person to be around lately, but the harder i try the worse i am!!! ah well no ones perfect and I'm certainly a long way from being that.

I'm going to try for another reasonable nights sleep and that may have helped contribute to me have been feeling better today. Sleep deprivation? who knows. So i am off to bed and its only 2330hrs! good intentions, but just a minute, isn't the road to hell paved with good intentions? um i will ponder on that thought but not at this minute, however tomorrow is another day................