Day 209

Awoke to the Sunshine again. Lovely to have someone else in the house to think about.

Tom made our morning go very quickly and having someone else to share a meal with was grand.
Managed to get some photos of Toms car again and will try to send them to him, but i really am useless that that type of thing! Mikey used to help me with that although usually after telling me 3-4 times he would give up and tell me to work it out myself! so here i am doing just that.

When Tom left Tim took me out to Thetford for a walk and take some photos i now realise he probably knew how i would feel once Tom had gone, and maybe he even felt the same.

So we went to the woods and we were lucky to see two deer! i managed to get one on film but the other escaped me before i could click!! The sounds in the forest were so peaceful. The bird song carried at great distances. The sun was out and it really was like a summers day.

Home and the daffodils i planted after Mikey passed away are out in the garden in their glory. So bright and you can see them from the lounge, just as i hoped. How strange that when i planted them i thought they would brighten up our days, instead they were such a reminder of those sad days that i cry now when i look at them. Maybe its because i miss Tom so much. Having him here made me miss Mikey so much and i wished they were both with me.

Misery tore into me with a vengeance i could almost hear her mocking my efforts to escape her clutches. A trip to tesco resulted in me filling up at the checkout, i was watching the family in front of me two small children one in the trolley and the other pulling at his brother. I remembered when my boys were small and so wished it was me. How sad is that. So i am sitting here again feeling sorry for myself. I know it wont do but hey! its just the day i guess and it will pass and it will happen again. Still its the unexpected way it attacks that causes the problems.

Mothers day is coming and i will miss Mikeys card and phone call, i suppose that's another reason for feeling sad.

Well i have managed to download some snaps even one of Tom that i had to get by sneaking the camera round the fence.

                                                     Tom

                                             Tim having a quiet moment

                                             The deer is in here!!

                                           The daffs in our garden.

Well I'm going to try and get some photos on face book now, try and cheer up and remember that tomorrow is another day.................