Windy and overcast this morning but the day calmed and we went for a walk. The birds were singing. A cacophany of sound. A mix of Crows, sparrows ans doves.
The sun cameout later and we went for our second walk of the day 6 miles!! armed with camera i hoped to manage my new camera. The past couple of days i was using the digital one where i could see the view on the screen. Last night i tried the eye piece of my new camera and coped ok so i thought just maybe i would capture that elusive shot!
Well i think out of the many i took one was what i wanted. I will try and down load them tomorrow night.
A phone call from my friend had me going into work. Her sister had died aged 36. There is so much tradegdy at the moment. It seems this year has started off where the last year ended! The sad thing is her sister and family are on the other side of the world. It must be so hard for her. Tomorrow she is setting off for home, alone. Gosh i wish i could arrange someone to go with her. It is not like here where you can get a bus or taxi. Its arranging a flight and trying to get one thats the problem. What a terrible thing to do on your own.
I could offer only words. I know that isnt enough but having lost Mikey i realise that what ever i say will be cold comfort. The decision she had to make will haunt her but eventually she will come to terms with that, but she doesnt need to hear that now. Just letting her know i am here and allowing her to do whats right for her is as much as i can do. I care deeply for her and her loss and she will also know that with out words. Sometimes the less you say has the most effect.
It is at times like this that you can see how far i have come on the road to healing, mind you if someone said that to me i would probably disagree. Its all about making your own decisions and acceptance, not other peoples views. I guess thats where problems lay and where misunderstandings occur.
Tom phoned today, he continues to offer us comfort by asking for our help and advice. It doesnt mean he will take it though! We have been blessed with two wonderful sons. Both so different i just wish i had them both here now. Mikey remains always in our thoughts, in what we do and where we go. The seasons bring with it memories of happier days and for that i am so grateful.
I think the one thing that gives us solace is that we did our best. Some people would say perhaps not enough, but my greatest gift ever was to produce and raise a son that was loved as much as Mikey, knowing that the man he became was a result of how we bought him up.
The boys looks came from their Dad, thank goodness, we were blessed to have such hansome sons. Im a mum and i would say that!!
Tom continues to be a worry and i so hope he finds happiness. I pray for that!!!
Well im preparing for the two days in Oxfors but hate leaving Tim on his own, i worry about him. What a to do, still im sure he will cope.
Toms hoping to come down for a day at the weekend, it will be wonderful to see him. Tim and Tom will no doubt be talking cars! and the Grand Prix season, nothing new there then!
Im going to try and put a picture on of the wonder cliffs at Hunstanton. They talk about Dover but i think these on the Norfolk coast are outstanding.
Wonderful dont you think.
Well i better get those drops in and then to bed because tomorrow is another day.
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