At last today it feels as though the clouds have lifted and parted leaving me feeling much lighter in mood.
This could be because the pain in the knee is less, that work went well today or because i had a lovely long conversation with Tom. I think that was the answer!
Sometimes the days just seem so pointless, others you don't know whats wrong or why its been a bad day. Grieving remains a mystery to me even now and its been 5 months.
I still expect to see Mikey or to speak to him. His pictures keep him very much alive at the time of looking, The pain of our loss remains the same.
Yet other days are good, when memories are comforting and when you can focus on the positive.
I don't think i have had such a long period of time of feeling totally miserable. Initially you are almost numb and you blink to find six weeks have passed. I know they have because of the blog. How strange is that.
So tonight i am comfortable sitting here and pondering on my day.
Tim has been out for a nightly walk! sadly i cant go with him yet. The knee is improving and i don't want to upset things at the moment. If it is a ham string it may get better quite quickly!! Lets hope so.
I think because of how the pain is decreasing i can yet again see my goal. It doesn't seem quite so impossible now. Even the healthy eating is appealing!!!
There is hope for me yet. That's what Mikey, wanted hope!! that's made me feel sad so i am going to close now and trust that tomorrow is another day..................
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