My goodness i know i felt rough when i blogged on Wednesday but had no idea i was going to lose almost 3 days!!!
I really have been feeling lousy and the events of Thursday really did take their toll and i suppose it literally was the final straw that broke the camels back.
I think i have said before how people in general can surprise you!!!!
a good walk around the new city hospital was a revelation and extremely tiring. Yet again i found loads of space in the STD clinic car park!! People will soon start to talk.
I waited to bring a friend home so nearly 2 hours to walk about and have a coffee and used the time to write the assessment up, will save time doing it at home.
Back to work and maybe the least said about that the better!! Once again it is the people closest to you that surprise you. No more though!!!!!
I found the whole episode very draining and what with feeling under the weather i think its time for a change!!
Night visit was also quite challenging but all things done will hopefully lead to more improvements.
Friday!!! i lost it really i went to work for a few hours in the afternoon. Yet again not as i expected!! i had thought to get some respite at least but that wasn't to be either. Fell asleep on the sofa at 6pm and didn't wake until 0130, crawled to bed and woke at 9am this morning. Not sure if i have flu or not. Keep coming over hot and cold, headaches and rotten cough. Still i mustn't grumble. Mikey is constantly in my thoughts and the admiration i have for those with CF continues to grow.
I have always been so healthy and now to find myself with all these very minor issues and yet they are so debilitating. Goodness only knows how people cope with disabilities. Its so hard to get yourself motivated.
I had the run to keep me going and since the knee i am just floundering. Still after today's physio session i can at least do some exercise. No running yet!!! I am to cycle short distances, swim but only the crawl, no breast stroke. That's going to be fun cos i don't think i have done the crawl since i was at school!! Exercises to do with this large red band!!! well i am going to do them religiously!! so far the treatment has worked so I'm not going to mess up now!!
Do i sound depressing, my word it really will not do. Tim's sister has been in touch with Tim again, its good for him to talk to someone else apart from me!!!
Toms been on the phone almost everyday and i think Tim is going up to Doncaster next week to see him, i think its to do with cars. Now there is a surprise!!!!!
I have booked our summer holidays and they are the same weeks as last year and in the same place. Something to look forward to at the same time last year we went just as Claire decided she didn't want to be with Mikey at least not as his wife!!
The sun tried to come out today and Tim took me out for a ride in the car. Made a change and i didn't fall asleep!!! that could have been because i slept for 15 solid hours. Must have needed it.
Although the sun was shining it was that milky sunshine effect when the sky was a blur where the sun was no bright shining orb.
The fields lay dormant although you know there is this anticipation of change in the air. The fens have almost beaten their adversary, winter! and the hope of the forthcoming spring almost has the air humming. The water filled ditches appears like a shiny snake through the fields, not yet sparkling in the sun but getting there. The river at Kings Lynn had receded leaving huge muddy banks behind it. The tides out at Sunny Hunny then. Perhaps a walk along the prom next week. Linda has a caravan at Hunny so may be we will call in for a cuppa, she said we can go anytime.
Decided to cycle to the library before it closed and change my books not to far and certainly no hills! The only hill we have in town is norwood side bridge! it goes over a railway line!! as i have said the fens are flat!!
Went fine didn't give me any additional pain. Good until i went round a corner and there were three young lads about 8-10 i would think, and one of them said to his friend watch it you don't want to knocked over by an old lady!!! can you believe that old!!! me !!!! and the sad thing is i guess i am am to those, boys but i feel so young inside!! the body may be on the downward slope but my mind is still that of a young girl in her twenties!! isn't that sad. Is that why so many women try to turn back the ravages of time by having a face lift or botox etc. I may yet join them!!! Maybe its the hair? i am trying to grow it i quite fancy the feel of a ponytail again. I remember when i had it all cut off, Tim didn't speak to me for three days and both the boys cried. I can still render Tim speechless and the boys only to tears of laughter lately. Oh well.
Maybe a shopping trip will cheer me up, although even that is fraught with danger! i always buy clothes a size too small!!! i persuade myself i will slim
Sisters have been really supportive and have left loads of messages. Friday is getting closer to our meeting. Linda is striding ahead with the weight loss with Joy and i trailing behind. I am in last place!!! Best make a last ditch attempt to lose at least a pound before then. Saying that i have managed to lose 3 pounds in the last two weeks. They must have come off in my sleep!!
Well i suppose i better try and get some sleep. I'm still in Mikeys room, the cough keeps Tim awake, strange how the home still resonates with the sound of coughing. Its comforting somehow and yet downright miserable in others, Ah well Tomorrow is another day..............
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