Its Friday and another week has passed by. Where has the time gone. At one point time was my worst enemy and now there just isn't enough of it. I wonder if my mind will change about that in the future!
I have hardly spoken to anyone today and cannot remember the last time we all at work sat down and had a reasonable conversation. We really do just pass each other by. We are becoming strangers to each other, how sad is that.
The weather remains windy and at the moment i can yet again hear the roaring of the wind snaking round the bungalow striving to find a way in the nooks and crannies, and gap will do. I can see the curtains twitching in the breeze!
A ride down the bypass tonight and the car was buffeted by the wind as it blew across the fields. The road very exposed to the weather, no buildings or trees to break the strength of wind. The crematorium was a welcoming beacon to guide us home. It looked like part of a star studded piece of the sky and fallen to earth. It was beautiful if ever i should say such a thing, and very compelling to watch. Too much of a distraction for someone like me. I could feel myself drifting across the road towards the lights, oops.
Mikey very much in my thoughts this evening. His cousin, who he kept in touch with was very low in mood, i know she misses Mikey at the moment and would have been able to talk to him about her worries. Mikey would have made her look at things in a positive way, understanding her frustrations. I can only listen. Mikey understood life, that's a rare gift, he had an ability to see into a problem. Its hard to explain.
Well i have done something special tonight and cant wait for next week. I will share my news then!! All thanks to Tim, what a man he is!! I really should count the blessings i have, but i cant help thinking how grey the world is without Mikey. He bought colour into our lives just by being here. That will for us never return and our lives will always be in the shadows now.
I miss Tom as well and i am sure our lives would have more purpose if he was closer to us, i know Tim wishes we could spend more time with him.
I continually hope for his transfer.
Are we an unlucky family? it just seems that some people go through life with no problems at all and yet ours have been dogged by misfortune, are we due for a change i do so hope so.
Well i have done my exercises, i have weighed and have put on a pound!!!! shame on me, it must be muscle!!!! A couple of walks out at the weekend i think and see how i do i am raring to go.
Tim wanted me to go back to athletics this weekend but i think that's just too soon i don't want to mess my knee up again!
Dr's again tonight, i just cant shift this cough. Asthma playing up, so change of inhaler more tablets and hope this will clear everything up ready for a new me but saying that, Tomorrow is another day!....
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