Well i have been home from work about half an hour and i am really tired its 0147hrs!!!
So its a short blog tonight.
I have had a bad day i suppose, finding myself short tempered and generally irritable. It will be 6 months since we lost Mikey on Thursday and I'm dreading the day. I could just cry at a drop of a hat and i just know that misery has me in her sights. I can feel her drawing close and can do nothing about it. In fact i will find some sollace to find myself wrapped in her cloak of despair. I will at least have a reason not to keep up this facade of coping. I'm tired and want to wallow. Not a good thing but who cares!!
I know that i will pick myself up, until the next time! So for today i have been tidying, a bad sign and one my colleagues recognise as my coping mechanism. They will not look forward to their day at work. Nothing and no one escapes my frenzy of activity. Nothing is sacred and possessions will be moved to where i want them , well at least for a day and things will return to normal afterwards. Oh dear.
The body is failing!! back aches, knee hurts I'm a wreck!!
I think i have tired myself out!!
But tomorrow is another day....................
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