Not a good day today. Spent periods through the day crying. Its strange but i never quite realised that i would see this time as another milestone along the grieving journey. 6 months is somehow more measurable.
Lots of thoughts today and reflecting on the past events, not realising either how traumatic they were at the time. I can appreciate when you hear the term 'mad with grief', i think i went slightly mad and maybe still am, only time will tell if you can recover and return to normality.
So here i am embraced in the arms of misery and yet there is some light trying to get through. When i got home tonight, there was my shiny new camera!!! Mikey you were right i do love it. I have managed to get it working!! but don't understand it all, but i will learn.
I should have taken tomorrow off work but instead we are having a civvie day and we are all going to be doing some tidying up, bless them!!!! Perhaps its a case of if you cant beat her, join her.
The Ritz is booked! so April is a month to look forward to. Tim wants me to book some leave now, i still have 7 days to book and the year for holidays is almost done so i better get a wiggle on. Days out i think.
Tim said his sister phoned him today so that was good for him.
Its been very quiet at home tonight both of us with our own thoughts but tomorrow will be hard, i do know that we will cope, how ell doesn't matter but we will. There is so much for us to do and so many things we need to achieve and at the moment the does seem to be a purpose but,
Tomorrow is another day...............
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