Its been a strange day today. One of those days that you know you went to work and worked hard but my goodness the volume overwhelms you at you get home thinking did i do that? Yet when asked what you did today there is no way to describe the events! My goodness i barely understand myself so what help for you the readers!!!
Back to the start of the day maybe. I woke to a really heavy frost and freezing outside Scarf, gloves and overcoat. Defrost the car and then negotiate the school run traffic and the children that resemble worker ants streaming across the pavements and road. Their breath looking like smoke. Remembering walking the boys to school on similar mornings and pretending to be dragons taking our minds off how cold it was. Good memories.
Work. Oh dear, oh dear. Yet another day when you just work on instincts. A day when you cant remember if you sat down. A day when i know i saw my administrator but did we actually talk to each other today. A day when you attempt to pull all the treads of the recent events together and still end up with all these loose ends. Oh drat, drat and double drat. A wicked day!!!
Tom bless him so far away and still having problems with his car etc. Tim feeling frustrated that we live so far away that we cant just pop round and help him. I do wish he lived closer to home. I miss him to. I miss him taking the mickey out of me. I hope he phones his dad tomorrow to let us know how things are going.
A day when driving home that sudden thought, the random recollection that prompts you to think ah i must tell Mikey. The realisation that you cant. All that taking place in a moment just a flash, seconds that can make you feel so sad. The distraction that almost results in you pulling out of a road junction without thought. The fear that you could have caused an accident because of that one moment when concentration has gone.
Home and the conversation from Tim regarding a colleague who was killed at work, was that because of a moments loss of concentration. How easy it is to lose everything in a second.
Am i being morbid, no its just the day i have had.
I so resent the lack of time i have for missing Mikey. Do i detect a moment of me feeling sorry for myself. Cant have that!!!! It just has to get better and i guess tomorrow is another day................
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