Day 109

Xmas meal day today with my manager friends. What to wear. Put on a dress and looked like a pregnant duck, that wont do!!!

Work for a few minutes prior to going for meeting before lunch.
That lovely lady who i saw yesterday took the time to call in at work this morning and bought me a load of stuff that just may help get me motivated and the name of the tablet the Dr might prescribe. Im going to make appointment. Now is the time to get back to what i was doing a few weeks ago. I felt good and positive then so huge effort needed!!!!

Misery has kept away today but i saw her shadow over a colleague, and i thanked the stars that for today her attention was on someone else.

When listening to others today regarding work, i feel blessed to have some very good staff around me. I think we support each other.
This has been such a hard year. First my broken wrist, losing a friend Audrey in a dreadful car accident. This really hit us all hard and has had a long term effect on us all. Today we missed her presence. Mikeys ongoing health decline, the transplant assessment, the endless wait for the urologists to make decisions, the break down in his marriage, Toms problems and the effects of his wife leaving him and the financial situation that almost resulted in him losing everything. We could at least help there. Mikey needing the operation and then losing him. Tim and i having to adjust to the loss.
 Friends huge loss at his place of work and another who has misery perched on her shoulders today. Gosh so much between the seven of us. We have been made up to nine now but quite honestly they haven't been absorbed into our group as yet.

Home tonight and then swimming. We had the pool to ourselves and the nice sauna lovely!! Back home to poor Tim a chat and watched TV together for hour and then Tim to bed and me to blog. Oh yes and I'm wearing those exercise trainers. They make me feel sea sick or should i say have motion sickness! and I'm about 3 inches taller wearing them. Do they work? only time will tell. Mike would just look at me shake his head and ask me what i was going to do next. Oh yes and also tell me i have wasted my money!! I wont lose weight unless i stop eating and exercise. What a wise and honest young man he was!

Yay!! my favorite perfume arrived from Bulgaria today. Only place i could buy it from. Thank goodness for the Internet and the lessons Mikey!!!

Keeping busy is a sure way of keeping the mind off personal problems. The sad thing being i know the next day can be hard. Christmas is looming. I never thought i would think of Christmas like that. I have always enjoyed this season. Not this year!

On the whole its been a good day but as i say, Tomorrow is another day..................