Day 111

Its amazing how the remnants of the night before follow you into sleep and into the next day.

I'm so tired and its a hell of an effort just to keep going!! Still it was a new day and i blinked and here i am again. Its that wretched word time again isn't it.

I heard a piece of music today and went on Utube. Its called All i need for Christmas is New Years Day by Hurt. If there is anyone reading this blog who has had a bad year then listen, i have it on my ipod now and will i am sure play it through out all of next year!!

Tom phoned today and he thinks he will only come down for Xmas day and return to Donnie later that night. Its because of his dog. I know its been company for him but now its ruling Toms life and stopping him from having a social life. May be that's the way Tom wants it though. Who am i to question.

Mikey has been in my thoughts all day, each day at the moment is so hard. Tim has lit his candle tonight. It was a huge purple one that he bought me years ago. Tim decided to light it. I suppose for me i was saving it. Why though, i suppose because it was a gift from him and I'm a sentimentalist. Still better to get the pleasure out of it now than leave it for poor old Tom to discard when we are gone. How morbid is that!.

Get my blood results tomorrow. I have managed with the help of google to diagnose myself with every illness going!!

Tim has had a week of not speaking to anyone!! it is in part his fault because he will not phone anyone himself. I know he looks forward to me coming home and telling him what sort of day i have had etc but there is only so much you can say without repeating yourself.

Tim has been on the web looking for dogs again tonight. Gosh it reminds me when he wants a new car!! Months of looking and then cant quite decide. Looks like i may have to make a decision here myself!!! I have already said he needs to start preparing for a pup. Build a run etc in the garden. But its snowing today!!!

Well its 1am and i need to get to grips with Roger!!! and do some walking. Tomorrow is another day.......