My goodness its so cold!!! Just not used the weather being quite as bad as this for a very long time!!
Tim's woke up with a really bad cold so i expect i will be next but that's just a minor detail.
Spoke to Tom today and as usual he managed to cheer me up!!! usual for me to fall for his comments before realising he is teasing. Such a mug i am!!! Caught out every time.
Work, ummmmm nothing goes to plan i have discovered! Just relentless but i managed to come home for lunch.
Tim had been to see about a little runabout for Tom at least he could take the dog out to the kennels etc if needs be. It would also do for getting to work instead of his Mazda. What else can we get him for Christmas? at least its usable and we don't have to wrap it!!!! So wont feel too Christmassy for us.
By the time i got home from work i had also got a cold. The car was so frozen i couldn't open the passenger door. Mind you i though i was totally frozen out as i could not open any of the doors or the boot until i was told that the car was still locked. Ooops!!!
Blood results are OK must have been an error. I was panicking a bit yesterday!!!
Met a lovely man in tesco tonight he is a therapist his business is called Sunshine after the Rain and offers bereavement therapy. I just may give it a go!!!
Tom phoned again tonight but it was whilst Tim was in bed. We must have chatted for over an hour. We talked about Mikey too.
Tom still feels that Mikey was let down by the health authority and that he should have been given the opportunity of a transplant. Tom also discussed Mikey's wife and was so upset about the way she conducted herself at his funeral. Tom felt that she was doing everything for her and to get the attention from other people. Tom feels very strongly that in some way she has to take responsibility for his mental health at the time and even if she wanted another chap she could have spared him some time at the end of his life. It didn't matter to Tom that she was with him when Mike died. Tom again felt that was more because it looked right rather than because she cared.
Tom is also very unhappy that she has not allowed him to have a token reminder of his brother.Tom really cant understand why she has been so possessive of his belongings when they had split up. Maybe it was because she could.
This has been the first time for weeks that Tom has spoken about how he feels. I actually felt better for talking about Mikey and tried to reassure him that we should just accept things as they are. Tom would like to go up and take Mikes casket away and bring it home. I asked what would it achieve. Tom said peace of mind. I best not say what else!!
We did end the conversation on a positive note, i said maybe she would have a change of heart later. Tom doesn't think so. Its a power thing.
Well better go to bed its almost 2am and tomorrow is another day................
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