Good Gracious i cant work out how to blog this and keep the dates in order. I think i will just write and put days on when i finish tonight and go from there!
Still having problems with the computer and it takes ages to find a way in!!! Must get the computer man back out.
I hope to catch up by the end of the week because i have some news! I do hope it will make Tim feel a bit better, lets hope so.
Anyway to continue with the holidays.
Day 282. Went to Dartmouth today and what a fab day it was.
Tom phoned this morning and chatted for ages. Lovely. Attempting to put up a fence and wanted some help. Tim happily obliged. Its good that Tom is trying to fill his days off doing something productive, he will then be able to say he has done something with his days off. It will also give him a sense of acheivment. Goodness only knows i can remember when we first attempted tp put wallpaper up! its all about experience!!
It began to rain but we headed off to,the ferry for our crossing, by the time we reached Dartmouth the sun was out. This time we were detirmined to find the castle. Each time we come we say will visit it but never do!
Another water trip! this time in a little boat. Lovely crossing and took loads of photos.
Quite a trek up from the landing to the castle. We sat out and had coffee and breakfast!! We spent considerable time exploring and climbing!!! didnt like the narrow spiral steps up to the top of the castle, still up i went, always willing to experience new things, gulp!!! coming down was worse!!!! needed the time to sit just to get my breath back!!! not because i was tired but it was through sheer terror!
To get a boat back you just turned over a board on the jetty and someone would fetch you. Tim told me to go ahead and turn the board whilst he went of to find the loo. The boat came and no Tim!!!! so we waited, imagine the look on his face when another person said 'and we thought it was women who kept everyone waiting!!'
Caught the car ferry back, yes thats because there was such a long queue for the passenger ferry. Steam train was in at Dartmouth so i got some glorious pics of the engine as it passed under the foot bridge i was on. Im going to make an album, trains boats and no planes!!!
Ankle was throbbing by now and Tim wanted to take me to casualty. Not so likely i will suffer first anyway no running today! Hopefully a less strenuous day tomorrow.
Well i better call it a day for now, its 0215 in the morning and work will soon be upon me!! I will try to catch up tomorrow after my run. Its been lovely weather, Mikey loved the sun, we do so miss him still and i dont think that will ever change. I find myself quite weepy again these days. Time is getting close to a year since we lost him, its just so damn hard! we live a pretence, a face to the world, a face to family, a face to friends, our true face shows only in the middle of the night when the rest of the world is sleeping, it is some times so damn lonely and at these times you wonder why its worth bothering with living anymore.Morning comes and you put on the face that suits the occasion, we continue on the wheel of life.
Wednesday 29 June 2011
Monday 27 June 2011
Day 278-302
I'm back!!!!
What a time it has been, first the holiday and then a virus on the computer when i returned. That was sorted and then another so i will make the most of tonight just in case i cannot get on for a while.
How i have missed my nightly chats to myself. I did keep a diary of when i was away and i will give brief daily account, just so i have a record and can read back if i feel like it in the future.
Well i did say i wasn't really looking forward to the holiday, it did however do us good. We found ourselves for a while, and that was good.
A complete rest from work!!
Day 278. I was up and ready before Tim got up and that surprised him, a good start to the day.We left home at 0430hrs! early but Tim wanted to miss the traffic. The sun was just rising and it wasn't dark, the colours of the sky was just amazing all soft misty yellows, orange and greys. The clouds looked just as if an artist had slashed the sky with grey paint using a fine brush. Two planes came up from the horizon just where the sun was coming up and they resembled silvery gold moving ribbons. I wondered who was on board and where they were going. As the sun warmed the earth, mist rose up and the wind turbines in the fields ghostly mythical creatures looming over the landscape. How good is the morning and i slept.
We arrived in Torquay and it was hot! the boats in the harbour looked grand, a lovely start to our break.
We walked around the harbour and had breakfast, then i shopped whilst Tim soaked up the atmosphere!
Ankle really swollen and painful so we rested and found our accommodation, unpacked and then sat outside the caravan with my feet up.
Evening in Brixham more walking and an evening meal whilst listening to live music. Manged to find some disposable ice packs. Tim had an early night and i watched the fireworks over the bay and for me an early night. Midnight. Kept to my diet!!!!
Day 279 Babbacombe Wonderful Sunday lunch at Babbacombe Arms. Paignton and walked miles. Watched a gentleman making a sand sculpture of a dolphin. Not sunny today but at least it was dry. We did do a lot of reminiscing about previous holidays when the boys were small. Watched steam train come into the station and we talked about i used to test Tim on all the brakes and wheels etc when he was learning to be an examiner of freight trains. Tom was a baby then and we would usually study whilst i was bathing Tom. I became quite knowledgeable!!
Went to the cinema a collected a time table, will get a film in some time this holiday!
Tim scuffed the valance of the car! thank the lord it wasn't me.
Got results of the times of our run! i did it in 40.16 seconds. Ah well at least i finished.
A walk round Torquay in the evening and saw a man stopped by the police, out came the blue gloves and he was arrested for possesion of drugs!! Handcuffs the works! of course we were looking and the chap waved at us so being friendly i waved back. Oops not the right thing to do. We didn't know him from Adam of course so we then beat a hasty retreat. Did the cliff walk and amazingly my legs didn't ache so i guess the exercise has been helpful. No plans for the week just get up and see how we feel.
Day 280. A lie in!! Walk to Preston and Paignton really long walk and we had to stop for coffee! We walked for 2 hours without stopping after all. Overcast today but still dry. Back to Babbacombe for lunch. We walked beside the cliffs and watched a hawk being attacked by Crowes. A few hours sitting in the gardens with a book!! More walking and returned to the van after 8 hours. Another walk in the evening!!! and we talked and talked about the boys and how Tom would be walking along the beach studying the rock pools, seeing what creatures were inside and checking how deep the water was. Mikey would just head straight out into the water! That seemed a pattern, where ever we went Mikey would either fall in or need a change of clothes or shoes. We eventually bought those jelly shoes for them from Oddocombe beach after another wetting!! blue ones i remember them well. It talks of showers tomorrow but we will have to wait and see. They never seem to get the weather right when predicting! I bought book light yesterday so not to disturb Tim at night but i used it to guide Tim around the bedroom when he got up to find the door. So funny. We want to go to Cornwall one day of our hols but its the Royal Cornwall show so traffic may be heavy for a few days so we will wait until its over. Taking lots of photos, what a joy that has been. Well its cold tonight so i can feel a heated bean bag coming on!!
Day 281 Shaldon today. It rained! we saw a lovely beach apartment for sale and was sorely tempted.
This afternoon we went to Brixham to sit around the harbour after walking to the lighthouse!!!
Tim dropped me off at Goodrington beach, i changed into running kit and he left me to run back to the site!! lovely running beside the sea. Going up the damn hills was a nightmare though! Result one very swollen ankle! and painful. No more walking tonight!
More tomorrow, i have writers cramp. But we have a very happy event coming up which i will put here after my holiday account. Pictures to when i can retrieve the lost info since the virus!!
What a time it has been, first the holiday and then a virus on the computer when i returned. That was sorted and then another so i will make the most of tonight just in case i cannot get on for a while.
How i have missed my nightly chats to myself. I did keep a diary of when i was away and i will give brief daily account, just so i have a record and can read back if i feel like it in the future.
Well i did say i wasn't really looking forward to the holiday, it did however do us good. We found ourselves for a while, and that was good.
A complete rest from work!!
Day 278. I was up and ready before Tim got up and that surprised him, a good start to the day.We left home at 0430hrs! early but Tim wanted to miss the traffic. The sun was just rising and it wasn't dark, the colours of the sky was just amazing all soft misty yellows, orange and greys. The clouds looked just as if an artist had slashed the sky with grey paint using a fine brush. Two planes came up from the horizon just where the sun was coming up and they resembled silvery gold moving ribbons. I wondered who was on board and where they were going. As the sun warmed the earth, mist rose up and the wind turbines in the fields ghostly mythical creatures looming over the landscape. How good is the morning and i slept.
We arrived in Torquay and it was hot! the boats in the harbour looked grand, a lovely start to our break.
We walked around the harbour and had breakfast, then i shopped whilst Tim soaked up the atmosphere!
Ankle really swollen and painful so we rested and found our accommodation, unpacked and then sat outside the caravan with my feet up.
Evening in Brixham more walking and an evening meal whilst listening to live music. Manged to find some disposable ice packs. Tim had an early night and i watched the fireworks over the bay and for me an early night. Midnight. Kept to my diet!!!!
Day 279 Babbacombe Wonderful Sunday lunch at Babbacombe Arms. Paignton and walked miles. Watched a gentleman making a sand sculpture of a dolphin. Not sunny today but at least it was dry. We did do a lot of reminiscing about previous holidays when the boys were small. Watched steam train come into the station and we talked about i used to test Tim on all the brakes and wheels etc when he was learning to be an examiner of freight trains. Tom was a baby then and we would usually study whilst i was bathing Tom. I became quite knowledgeable!!
Went to the cinema a collected a time table, will get a film in some time this holiday!
Tim scuffed the valance of the car! thank the lord it wasn't me.
Got results of the times of our run! i did it in 40.16 seconds. Ah well at least i finished.
A walk round Torquay in the evening and saw a man stopped by the police, out came the blue gloves and he was arrested for possesion of drugs!! Handcuffs the works! of course we were looking and the chap waved at us so being friendly i waved back. Oops not the right thing to do. We didn't know him from Adam of course so we then beat a hasty retreat. Did the cliff walk and amazingly my legs didn't ache so i guess the exercise has been helpful. No plans for the week just get up and see how we feel.
Day 280. A lie in!! Walk to Preston and Paignton really long walk and we had to stop for coffee! We walked for 2 hours without stopping after all. Overcast today but still dry. Back to Babbacombe for lunch. We walked beside the cliffs and watched a hawk being attacked by Crowes. A few hours sitting in the gardens with a book!! More walking and returned to the van after 8 hours. Another walk in the evening!!! and we talked and talked about the boys and how Tom would be walking along the beach studying the rock pools, seeing what creatures were inside and checking how deep the water was. Mikey would just head straight out into the water! That seemed a pattern, where ever we went Mikey would either fall in or need a change of clothes or shoes. We eventually bought those jelly shoes for them from Oddocombe beach after another wetting!! blue ones i remember them well. It talks of showers tomorrow but we will have to wait and see. They never seem to get the weather right when predicting! I bought book light yesterday so not to disturb Tim at night but i used it to guide Tim around the bedroom when he got up to find the door. So funny. We want to go to Cornwall one day of our hols but its the Royal Cornwall show so traffic may be heavy for a few days so we will wait until its over. Taking lots of photos, what a joy that has been. Well its cold tonight so i can feel a heated bean bag coming on!!
Day 281 Shaldon today. It rained! we saw a lovely beach apartment for sale and was sorely tempted.
This afternoon we went to Brixham to sit around the harbour after walking to the lighthouse!!!
Tim dropped me off at Goodrington beach, i changed into running kit and he left me to run back to the site!! lovely running beside the sea. Going up the damn hills was a nightmare though! Result one very swollen ankle! and painful. No more walking tonight!
More tomorrow, i have writers cramp. But we have a very happy event coming up which i will put here after my holiday account. Pictures to when i can retrieve the lost info since the virus!!
Friday 3 June 2011
Day 275/276/277
Well we are off on our holidays in a couple of hours. I'm not sure how i feel about it really. I do know i am in desperate need of a break, so we will see.
I have spent the past few days just weeping at every little thing. I feel so incredibly sad and cant get out of this dark place. It would appear misery has found me yet again and doesn't she just know how to chose her moments. Mikey is in the forefront of my thoughts all the time and i miss him!
I do have so much to be thankful for, a good husband and another lovely son, but it just doesn't seem enough. How selfish am i.
Yesterday was without doubt one of the most miserable days i have had at work. I know i cant cope with another like that. It wasn't the work but the people! Myself included.
It was hot in the office no air and that didn't help. I was doing my first 5k run and wasn't in the mood. I thought i may get off early and ice the ankle before i went but that didn't work out.
Tim and Tom wished me luck and gave those knowing looks.
So the race well i got my first number i was 78! Sue bought us all an energy tube! Lord then we were told the route. Oops we hadn't planned on that, rather longer than we thought and over grass.
Started off well but it was so very hot, breathing was OK but my legs ached quite soon into the run. Not usual for me. I told Sue to run on and leave me as i was slower than she was tonight. It was a race after all.
I was last!!!! but everyone was really kind, its no fun running alone and i was feeling like giving up. Along the path in front of me came two walkers. Its a lovely spot to walk and lots of people walk their dogs along the same route. Anyway as they got closer it was my very dear friend Diana and her husband calling out support, so i got a hug on the run and an offer to come with me! how about that. I kept going and was on the home straight when Keith one of the club runners came back to pace me!! that really helped . So i finished and felt like ......... Apparently i did the course at 12 min a mile. So a lot of improvement needed!!!
Lots of practice needed on holiday.
Home and then a night shift to get up to date with some reports. The damn computer kept crashing and found it almost impossible to get them done. I attempted other work and cleared a back log but not what i wanted to do. I wonder if it will still be there on my return.
So I'm going to sign off now and before i know it i will be sitting here again and the holiday will be over. What is that saying, today is the tomorrow i was dreading yesterday.................... Tomorrow is another day!
I have spent the past few days just weeping at every little thing. I feel so incredibly sad and cant get out of this dark place. It would appear misery has found me yet again and doesn't she just know how to chose her moments. Mikey is in the forefront of my thoughts all the time and i miss him!
I do have so much to be thankful for, a good husband and another lovely son, but it just doesn't seem enough. How selfish am i.
Yesterday was without doubt one of the most miserable days i have had at work. I know i cant cope with another like that. It wasn't the work but the people! Myself included.
It was hot in the office no air and that didn't help. I was doing my first 5k run and wasn't in the mood. I thought i may get off early and ice the ankle before i went but that didn't work out.
Tim and Tom wished me luck and gave those knowing looks.
So the race well i got my first number i was 78! Sue bought us all an energy tube! Lord then we were told the route. Oops we hadn't planned on that, rather longer than we thought and over grass.
Started off well but it was so very hot, breathing was OK but my legs ached quite soon into the run. Not usual for me. I told Sue to run on and leave me as i was slower than she was tonight. It was a race after all.
I was last!!!! but everyone was really kind, its no fun running alone and i was feeling like giving up. Along the path in front of me came two walkers. Its a lovely spot to walk and lots of people walk their dogs along the same route. Anyway as they got closer it was my very dear friend Diana and her husband calling out support, so i got a hug on the run and an offer to come with me! how about that. I kept going and was on the home straight when Keith one of the club runners came back to pace me!! that really helped . So i finished and felt like ......... Apparently i did the course at 12 min a mile. So a lot of improvement needed!!!
Lots of practice needed on holiday.
Home and then a night shift to get up to date with some reports. The damn computer kept crashing and found it almost impossible to get them done. I attempted other work and cleared a back log but not what i wanted to do. I wonder if it will still be there on my return.
So I'm going to sign off now and before i know it i will be sitting here again and the holiday will be over. What is that saying, today is the tomorrow i was dreading yesterday.................... Tomorrow is another day!
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