Hey Mikey its midnight the bells are chiming and its the end of another year and the beginning of a new one. The 3rd new year you have missed! Maybe i should say another year we have missed you.
Its raining, the fireworks are going off and the sky outside is ablaze with Chinese lanterns mine will come tonight, when its dry. After all I'm a danger to myself at the best of times, so when its wet and windy there will be little hope for you receiving said lantern!
Duke is proving to be a bit of a baby! the fireworks upset him and i have just been wearing 70kg of fur, muscle, teeth and claws as a medallion! oh and that's when hes not trying to sit on my lap! i may have to put the radio on for him, he loves music, now how bizarre is that!
2012 has been an eventful year. Its only now when i look back i can actually think about how many things have changed.
A year of ups and downs, highs and lows. Astonishing feats, how on earth i completed a marathon i really don't know. I believe you were there with me spurring me on. I can only just do 5 miles now! i have been injured though, does that count?
Your Dad has decide to get fit this year, ah well lets hope he does do that, may give him an interest and something to talk about.
This time last year i was training for the run of my life! and am now looking forward to some early morning runs. The knee has improved shame about the back and all the rest of me though. Well its a new year and we must think of new things to do again each month.
So i have enrolled on a core fitness challenge, looks hard!!! Still i will give it a whirl.
It has been so hard since changing jobs to focus on what is important in our home lives. So easy to lose sight of that and yet again i find myself on the endless wheel of work!
So today i take stock and re evaluate the year ahead.
Tom has settled i think and appears a bit better than he was, i suppose he too has had to adapt and make changes to his life. Never easy is it Mike, you probably know that more than any of us. Its still hard to grasp the fact that you complained so little. in fact Mikey you never once grumbled at all to us. What a wonderful man you were and still are in our hearts.
So many people still remember you Mikey, you are not forgotten.
May is going to be an eventful month, your birthday, a special wedding and another effort for CF. Can you see us Mikey? oh i hope so. Hope, its that word again, so small and yet so meaningful, a word we shouldn't just use everyday but we do.
At last Duke has curled up with his Monkey and appears settled! for now.
I'm still taking loads of photos and getting as much pleasure as i did when i first started using it. Still not got to grips with all it can do so sent for a copy of Nikon for dummies, well needs must. I have the use of an ipad now. I can almost hear you laughing at that and then the words that its a waste on someone like me, and you would be right! ah well at some point i had to move with the times, but my trusty phone remains the same, a brick, but a working brick!
This year more of your friends have joined you and i hope the party is still going on, if you can if its possible think kindly of us and know that we love you you still.
For us, tomorrow is just another day...................
Monday 31 December 2012
Wednesday 26 December 2012
DAY 860-871
Well Mikey Christmas is just about over, thank goodness.
I know you loved this time of year but we have very little joy now about the whole period. Tom makes us remember. If we didn't have Tom i think we would give up on the whole process.
So how have the last 10 days passed.
The weather as usual has been pretty grim. Rain rain and more rain.
My car has been going well and i love it. So pleased i made my mind up and had it.
The knee is recovering well but i have put the back out as well although thanks to physio and the exercises it seems to be on the mend.
I have another race next weekend and not sure if I'm really fit. The new exercises are showing up muscles i forgot i had! and i have been visited by Mr dead legs and have struggled round the streets.
Work is good and the travelling to and fro gives me time to think and by the time i get home I'm chilled! now that does make a change.
The scenery has been quite remarkable, i can see the same view daily but i can see something changing each time i gaze across the fens.
The fields are water logged and huge lakes of water are covering the new planting, i wonder what next years harvest will be like.
Coming home the other evening, well it was Christmas Eve and i managed to get off a little bit earlier so it was just getting dark. The country roads were like ribbons shining with the wetness with the moon catching light on them, it was mystical and very calming. I could have drove all night. Oops a name of a song.
Tom bought me a telescope and i will now be able to star gaze to my hearts content. I attempted to see the moon tonight, with little success. I could see it OK with the eye, but focusing the equipment another matter entirely!
Duke has been in his first fight! oh Mikey you would adore him. He is almost human and i often wonder what hes thinking. Still a small terrier bit his nose when he went to play with it. Poor Duke came off the worst and has now a lovely scar on the tip of his nose. As dad said his modelling days are over!
As you can imagine i have put weight on, now there is a surprise, so the diet is under way! again yes i know I'm always on a diet, but this time i hope it stays off. Linda has done really well and looks 10 years younger, so here's hoping lol!
People still remember you Mikey and write messages on your Wall, Claire Cruickshank always thinks of you.
Maddy is getting married in May and I'm sure you would have loved to have been there, i hope we get photos and will share them with you.
Never a day goes by without us thinking about you and we all feel that there is a huge pert of our family gone and will never be able to fill that void. To be honest Mikey we just cant get on as you wanted us to, but we do try.
I think dad may take up running in the new year! cant wait to see him in shorts. I will have to post a photo when that happens. Tom is now quite keen on cycling and does seem to enjoy it.
Scott has moved into Nans house so yet another whitwell in Eastwood. Its comforting knowing that its still in the family.
Tom was on the Tornado steam train from Welyn to Norwich he was conducting it through. We went to Ely and watched it come through the station. There was Tom with his head out of the cab checking the signals, huge grin on his face, surrounded by these huge bouts of steam. What a sight and what a privilege to be on it.
Well i better get to bed, work in the morning, i did have to go in today for a while but i didn't mind.
I bought Dad Moby Dick on audio CD ready for the really bad weather. Do you remember how the three of you used to sit and listen to stories on tape on Sunday mornings.
Nite Mikey love you xxx.
So till the next time, we still only function a day at a time and at night we go to bed thinking, tomorrow is another day......................
I know you loved this time of year but we have very little joy now about the whole period. Tom makes us remember. If we didn't have Tom i think we would give up on the whole process.
So how have the last 10 days passed.
The weather as usual has been pretty grim. Rain rain and more rain.
My car has been going well and i love it. So pleased i made my mind up and had it.
The knee is recovering well but i have put the back out as well although thanks to physio and the exercises it seems to be on the mend.
I have another race next weekend and not sure if I'm really fit. The new exercises are showing up muscles i forgot i had! and i have been visited by Mr dead legs and have struggled round the streets.
Work is good and the travelling to and fro gives me time to think and by the time i get home I'm chilled! now that does make a change.
The scenery has been quite remarkable, i can see the same view daily but i can see something changing each time i gaze across the fens.
The fields are water logged and huge lakes of water are covering the new planting, i wonder what next years harvest will be like.
Coming home the other evening, well it was Christmas Eve and i managed to get off a little bit earlier so it was just getting dark. The country roads were like ribbons shining with the wetness with the moon catching light on them, it was mystical and very calming. I could have drove all night. Oops a name of a song.
Tom bought me a telescope and i will now be able to star gaze to my hearts content. I attempted to see the moon tonight, with little success. I could see it OK with the eye, but focusing the equipment another matter entirely!
Duke has been in his first fight! oh Mikey you would adore him. He is almost human and i often wonder what hes thinking. Still a small terrier bit his nose when he went to play with it. Poor Duke came off the worst and has now a lovely scar on the tip of his nose. As dad said his modelling days are over!
As you can imagine i have put weight on, now there is a surprise, so the diet is under way! again yes i know I'm always on a diet, but this time i hope it stays off. Linda has done really well and looks 10 years younger, so here's hoping lol!
People still remember you Mikey and write messages on your Wall, Claire Cruickshank always thinks of you.
Maddy is getting married in May and I'm sure you would have loved to have been there, i hope we get photos and will share them with you.
Never a day goes by without us thinking about you and we all feel that there is a huge pert of our family gone and will never be able to fill that void. To be honest Mikey we just cant get on as you wanted us to, but we do try.
I think dad may take up running in the new year! cant wait to see him in shorts. I will have to post a photo when that happens. Tom is now quite keen on cycling and does seem to enjoy it.
Scott has moved into Nans house so yet another whitwell in Eastwood. Its comforting knowing that its still in the family.
Tom was on the Tornado steam train from Welyn to Norwich he was conducting it through. We went to Ely and watched it come through the station. There was Tom with his head out of the cab checking the signals, huge grin on his face, surrounded by these huge bouts of steam. What a sight and what a privilege to be on it.
Well i better get to bed, work in the morning, i did have to go in today for a while but i didn't mind.
I bought Dad Moby Dick on audio CD ready for the really bad weather. Do you remember how the three of you used to sit and listen to stories on tape on Sunday mornings.
Nite Mikey love you xxx.
So till the next time, we still only function a day at a time and at night we go to bed thinking, tomorrow is another day......................
Saturday 15 December 2012
Day 807-860
Can hardly believe its been so long since i last wrote on here.
Why? i suppose because i have been so miserable that i felt it unworthy of me to include writings when i was actually feeling so sorry for myself.
What happened, well i had the run i spoke about and it went well, i picked up the car and it was really good and then my back went. It has been one thing after another and apart from not being able to sit for very long i was in so much discomfort!
I ended up having physio on the back instead of the knee. Couldn't turn over in bed, hardly get out and just standing was the pits. Walking was better.
Tim thought it was the car and for a few weeks i thought it may have to go! I was unable to go to the Hilton, missed running and generally as i say feeling sorry for myself.
Eventually i was put on medication which did the trick with the exercises and boy that wasn't without risks in itself!
One gym ball and discovering when laying over it i couldn't get my hands of feet off the ground to do the stretch and then couldn't get off the wretched thing because i couldn't roll onto my knee. 7 am in the morning and Tim had to help me off it, started to push it and i was heading south, so he pushed me back until we realised if he had the feet i could propel on my hands to the bed. it was quite comical now i think about it but not at the time. I checked out the box and the ball was for people 5 foot 2 and over, i am 5 foot so the 2 extra inches were a problem!! and Tim had inflated it as much as he could to hold the weight!!! Today i purchased a smaller one
I managed to get to the club but only walked for several weeks and then ran for a minute and walked for 5. Backs now much better and i had my first proper run last Tuesday and ran 4 miles and the time wasn't too shabby. Race New Years Eve so I'm hoping i can manage that. Thursday was miserable again as i had just had physio and was given a running rehab programme, and that was so hard work, i was worn out for the run and it was so cold. It was minus 5, and i could feel myself tightening up and thought best not. Did a couple of miles and headed back. I will see how Tuesday goes. The thing was several of us were injured and all doing run and walks. Good company.
The days have been so strange too, the weather has been so changeable. I enjoy the early morning rides to work, the scenery changes everyday, its times like these that i wish i could paint.
The wash has been flooded and the Hereward relay cancelled and hoping to repeat it in February. I had an offer to do the LA marathon with CF but i have been advised no Marathons until the end of next year. I contacted them and hopefully may be offered a place in the NY marathon in 2014. We will see, i still have no passport.
Start training in the new year for the 40 mile walk in May.
Received a wedding invite to Mikey's very best friend in May too, he would have been thrilled that she was so happy, i am looking forward to that.
Managed to get out with the girls last week on Mums birthday and went for a meal in Jamie Oliver's restaurant.
I haven't been out with the camera for a few weeks but today we went to Ely to watch Tom drive through on the Tornado steam train. It was wonderful to see this huge piece of transport coming towards us on the track, steaming away and Tom, head of of the cab grinning away he had been booked on it to work from Welyn to Norwich what an opportunity.
I thought i would fill pages to make up for what i have missed but its a shamefully short piece!
Christmas is almost upon us and i do so dread this time. Its not been the same since we lost Mikey and it was his favourite time of the year. He would be so organised and have his pressies done well in advance. Gosh i miss him so much. He has been very much in our thoughts lately, its hard to appreciate that this will be our third Christmas without him
That's what i mean, how on earth can i write such meaningless stuff about how i am when i remember what he had to endure, truly puts me to shame.
Well i was going to inflate my new ball but i think it can wait after all tomorrow is another day!
Why? i suppose because i have been so miserable that i felt it unworthy of me to include writings when i was actually feeling so sorry for myself.
What happened, well i had the run i spoke about and it went well, i picked up the car and it was really good and then my back went. It has been one thing after another and apart from not being able to sit for very long i was in so much discomfort!
I ended up having physio on the back instead of the knee. Couldn't turn over in bed, hardly get out and just standing was the pits. Walking was better.
Tim thought it was the car and for a few weeks i thought it may have to go! I was unable to go to the Hilton, missed running and generally as i say feeling sorry for myself.
Eventually i was put on medication which did the trick with the exercises and boy that wasn't without risks in itself!
One gym ball and discovering when laying over it i couldn't get my hands of feet off the ground to do the stretch and then couldn't get off the wretched thing because i couldn't roll onto my knee. 7 am in the morning and Tim had to help me off it, started to push it and i was heading south, so he pushed me back until we realised if he had the feet i could propel on my hands to the bed. it was quite comical now i think about it but not at the time. I checked out the box and the ball was for people 5 foot 2 and over, i am 5 foot so the 2 extra inches were a problem!! and Tim had inflated it as much as he could to hold the weight!!! Today i purchased a smaller one
I managed to get to the club but only walked for several weeks and then ran for a minute and walked for 5. Backs now much better and i had my first proper run last Tuesday and ran 4 miles and the time wasn't too shabby. Race New Years Eve so I'm hoping i can manage that. Thursday was miserable again as i had just had physio and was given a running rehab programme, and that was so hard work, i was worn out for the run and it was so cold. It was minus 5, and i could feel myself tightening up and thought best not. Did a couple of miles and headed back. I will see how Tuesday goes. The thing was several of us were injured and all doing run and walks. Good company.
The days have been so strange too, the weather has been so changeable. I enjoy the early morning rides to work, the scenery changes everyday, its times like these that i wish i could paint.
The wash has been flooded and the Hereward relay cancelled and hoping to repeat it in February. I had an offer to do the LA marathon with CF but i have been advised no Marathons until the end of next year. I contacted them and hopefully may be offered a place in the NY marathon in 2014. We will see, i still have no passport.
Start training in the new year for the 40 mile walk in May.
Received a wedding invite to Mikey's very best friend in May too, he would have been thrilled that she was so happy, i am looking forward to that.
Managed to get out with the girls last week on Mums birthday and went for a meal in Jamie Oliver's restaurant.
I haven't been out with the camera for a few weeks but today we went to Ely to watch Tom drive through on the Tornado steam train. It was wonderful to see this huge piece of transport coming towards us on the track, steaming away and Tom, head of of the cab grinning away he had been booked on it to work from Welyn to Norwich what an opportunity.
I thought i would fill pages to make up for what i have missed but its a shamefully short piece!
Christmas is almost upon us and i do so dread this time. Its not been the same since we lost Mikey and it was his favourite time of the year. He would be so organised and have his pressies done well in advance. Gosh i miss him so much. He has been very much in our thoughts lately, its hard to appreciate that this will be our third Christmas without him
That's what i mean, how on earth can i write such meaningless stuff about how i am when i remember what he had to endure, truly puts me to shame.
Well i was going to inflate my new ball but i think it can wait after all tomorrow is another day!
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