Its been so long and yet i promised myself i wouldn't leave it so long. Some things just have not changed have they.
The last few weeks have been most odd. The weather has been so variable and work has been, well what can i say. I thought i had managed to work out in my mind what to do and how to do it. Nope that didn't work out at all well. I really have yet again been giving serious thought to my future, but at the same time wondered if this time of the year could have been influencing my reasoning. Well i guess anythings possible.
So many things are happening, the Marathon is getting closer and tonight for the first time ever i have my doubts in myself! Running tonight was so hard, and asthma attack in the middle of nowhere surrounded by that wretched Oilseed Rape was nearly the end of the run before it started. I have been working so hard and the long runs have gone well even though its been tough. 16.2 miles on Sunday and then tonight! just have to have faith in myself.
I have felt Mikey close recently but only whilst running. When I'm tired i can see him just ahead, jeans and t shirt on trying hard to run and giggling at himself because he knows he cant really do it, beckoning me on and then trying to do the same thing again. I could feel myself smiling even though i was struggling with the effort but he was nowhere near tonight!
The days, as i have said, have been odd, we have had walks out with Duke when its been really cold and down on the river the narrow boats have had their fires going and you could smell the woodsmoke burning, wafting across the park and fields, such a feel good aroma. Then rain,rain and more rain and tonight so warm, but no air. Not good!
Well i read my last post and it wasn't true!!! the box didn't contain an exercise bike but a rowing machine!! not much difference must have been because i was tired.
The shorts, still not tried them but i did however try the false tan and what a mistake that was. I have ended up with lovely brown arms but white wrists and hands!! and no i wasn't wearing gloves when i applied it. So if anyone has any ideas!
I'm worried i want raise the amount i hoped for the CF unit at Papworth, so i am desperately trying to promote the run, still its 3 weeks to go yet.
It was Mikey's birthday on Sunday and i felt so sad. I guess that's how it will be, i cant change anything, i wish i could. Mike would have been 27 years old. So very unfair. Maddie remembered us and sent a lovely basket of flowers and they had such bold orange blooms, Mikes favourite colour. How thoughtful was that.
Well i hope i can post some photos on tonight of the Olympic run, here we go
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On the track
My finishing time
Well there is a few of the pictures of the stadium etc and my medal! well i best get to bed, try to feel a bit more positive and remember that tomorrow is another day............................
